hehe angsty chapter because im feeling depressed today😞🤚(dont worry fluff after)
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10 years old:
"hey did you know? her mother died in a car crash" a boy told his friend as you were walking by, "really? must be sad...imagine being without a mother" the little boys laughed at you as you clutched the straps of your school bag you tried to ignore their laughter as you neared your classroom...why was everyone so mean to you?
you entered your classroom as you sat down before a crumpled up paper was thrown at you,you heard the girls laugh at you from the back as you looked down at the ground trying to hold back the tears threatening to fall from your eyes, "haha look at her she cant even fight back!" one of the girls commented as all of the burst into laughter, "right? i bet she's a trouble maker at home because she could even play soccer against guys who are bigger than her" one of the girls commented as you kept your head low...
its not like you wanted be like this...It wasn't your choice...always trying to be top in everything...you did it all for your parents...so why aren't they proud? what did you do to deserve this?...
you quietly ate your lunch before one of the students suddenly threw your lunch box away as they stomped on it, "hahaha! this is what you deserve!" you just watched in horror at your food being absolutely destroyed, "s-stop! my brother made that for me!" you protested as you tried to push him off,he shrugged you off his shoulder as you fell to the ground scraping your elbow in the process...
"your brothers food probably taste like shit!" you felt something inside you snap as you stood up and pounced on him, "dont talk bad about my brother! hes perfect!" you punched him as he yelled in pain, "get off me you monster!" you didn't budge as the two of you fought which the teachers had to break off...
you dad was called in as he saw you bruised up and bandaged up,you waited outside the principals office before you saw your father come looking stressed and angry as he looked right at you and without a word dragged you home...
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you woke up as you felt your tears pouring,you sat up as you wiped them away...why did it always have to be you? you thought as you quietly cried to yourself...as much as you wanted to forget your past...but it always seemed to haunt you,you were sick of life you thought to yourself as you wiped your tears
you took your time crying before you decided to walk around for a bit...you got up and made your way outside...hopefully ego doesn't know,you didn't really care where you went or anything you just needed something to get your mind off of your little dream or nightmare if thats what you'd call it...
you entered the room with screens as you decided to watch for a bit and learn the mistakes in your gameplay...you sat there as you felt a pang of sadness rush through you again as you felt more tears forming...not now...why were you so emotional? you questioned yourself as you sobbed into your arm, "why was life so unfair?"...
you kept crying until you felt a presence behind you as you tried to hide your face, "L/N- are you okay!?" you recognised the voice as ness as you didn't respond...you weren't even in the mood to be scared or embarrassed you just felt sad,he took a seat next to you as he took your hand into his warm hand...
"hey please dont cry...everything will be okay" you felt more tears pouring as you heard his comforting words...no one has ever comforted you like this before,he pulled you into a tight embrace as you cried into his chest...
he continued to comfort you as he drew small soothing circles on your back,you felt yourself slowly calm down at his comfort enjoying his warmth,you wiped your tears as you pulled away from him, "listen L/N...im sorry if i made you uncomfortable before-" you cut him off as you smiled at him, "its okay ness...i dont blame you" his eyes widened a bit at your words before his face flushed a bit...
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