fix you // liam payne

chapter twenty-four // decisions upon decisions.

ellie's pov

Just naturally, I feel my body slowly awakening. I release my slumber as I stretch my body until I can feel my body loosening from its deep sleep. The sun streams through the window, beating upon my face, warming my skin.

I blink blindly against the sun, bringing my hand forward to block the bright sunlight as I sit up tiredly, rubbing my eyes and letting out a yawn. As soon as my eyes focus once again, I squint to read the time displayed on my wristwatch.

I let out a little gasp as the time stares back at me, letting me know I've slept for far too long. Frantically, I hop out of bed and throw on my shoes, attempting to run my fingers through my messy hair as I rush out of the room.

But as soon as I enter the hall and look down, my eyes land on the door to Liam's room and my dilemma comes crashing back once more. Just the sight of his door makes me slightly nauseous, which is not the natural reaction I would like. Before the sight of anything that had to do with him would make me smile, but now that things are so complicated...

Before I fell asleep a few hours ago, I had finally settled on an agreement with myself that I would let whatever happen, but I needed to talk with Liam to try and figure out where he is on this whole situation.

But now that I'm faced with his door, it's all too real. I feel absolutely sick. There's no way I'm going to get a word out in front of Liam without getting sick in front of him. How charming that would be...

I can't help but to feel suddenly self-conscious. What if I muster up the courage to go in there and talk to him, and he just laughs in my face, saying that he has no feelings for me whatsoever and he thought the feeling was mutual and I'll end up running out of the room crying dramatically and have to go home and pack all my things and move across the country and hide in a convent to avoid ever coming in contact with Liam Payne ever again and -

I stop myself before my imagination gets the best of me.

Listen here Ellie, you need to put on your big girl panties and handle this situation like an adult. It's Liam; he'd never laugh or make you feel embarrassed about anything. You could piss yourself in front of him and he'd pretend he didn't notice and just play it off so smoothly.

I take a deep breath and take one last glance at myself in my reflection staring at me from a door window. Smoothing down some unruly hairs, I take the brave steps down the hall towards Liam's room.

Before knocking on the door, I hesitate with my fist suspended. Biting my bottom lip, I stand there for a few seconds, saying hopeful words for myself.

Then I knock.

"Come in!" Liam's familiar voice calls out right away, sounding so sweet as always, causing a small smile of confidence to appear on my face.

What was I even worried about? This is Liam.

I open the door slowly, poking my head in cautiously to make sure I wasn't disturbing Liam if he were busy.

Liam's sitting in his bed, looking as wonderful as always. When his eyes meet mine, he gives me a warm smile, which was so reassuring to see. I haven't really seen him since last night's awkwardness, so to see him back in our natural routine, it felt like everything was right once again. I hadn't even realized how much I had missed his smile and warm eyes until now.

"Hello, Dr. Vandergelt," Dr. Frenette's voice takes me by surprise. I hadn't even seen him sitting beside Liam, my eyes and thoughts were a little preoccupied by the puppy-eyed boy beside him, "You look much better after getting some rest," He smiles, not noticing my distraction, or at least pretends not to.