Ms.McGraw [Gxg][Student X Teacher]

23

Here I am, breaking down. Crying like a stupid rat.

I know what my heart wants. It's Selena, It's always been her.

There was no choice to make. I was blinded about all of the consequences of choosing her. My love for Selena is a million times more than Emily dickinson's love for susan hilbert.

Saying those words, hurts me. I feel like puking. If only Theo's gun is not pointed to our head. I would jump to her arms and smell my comfort scent and warmth.

I know our time was short, but I can confidently say that months of being together can be stronger than being together for years or even decades.

"Hey" I decided to ignore her. Is she blind? Can't she see that I'm crying? "This is also my favorite spot. Why are you here all alone? Don't you have friends?"

I looked at her with my eyebrows almost meeting. "Cause I don't."

"Huh?" I asked.

"I'm here, almost everytime, also all alone. Since I have no friends to hang out with." She smiles. She has a cute smile, innocent.

"Is it my fault?" I rolled my eyes at her.

"I know you don't care about me. But I just saw an advice, that telling a story to a stranger is easier cause they won't judge you."

"Uhuh and?"

"I had a real one, my bestfriend." She cleared her throat. "The best one, I have her back, and she has mine. But I ruined it because I chose the girl instead of my bestfriend. Ironic that I lose them both at the end. Now that's a lesson for me."

"Always pick your friends, partners are just dumb and will leave you in any chance they get. So long story short, I don't have friends and all."

"Well to cut this conversation short, you're dumb." I said and finally left her.

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It's friday. And I'm thinking about getting waisted again. Aish I hate my life. "Hey don't ditch our practice later." Alyssa warned me.

"I will" I smiled sarcastically at her. We headed, well she drag me to the locker room. there's no people here.

"What's with your mood Iv?"

"Nothing, Just- wait you know what? I want a liqour in my system. Let's get waisted tonight?"

"And get laid sure?"

"You haven't really change Alyssa."

"I don't know if thats a compliment or not"

"I don't know either"

"Do you still love me?" I asked, There's nothing wrong asking her that question. We are alone, it's quite.

I think this is the right time to give us another chance. I can tell she changed and became more mature. There's no harm in trying again right?

"My heart belongs to someone else." That made my heart drop. Looking at her eyes, I can tell that she really likes this person.

"Oh I'm happy for you. Do I know her?" I tried to sound excited, Hoping she won't feel my heart shaterring and jealousy.

"Yea very." She winks

"Is it Dalancy?" She fakes a puke and grossed face "Inez!?"

"Those recommendations of you is so disgusting Ivy!" She smacked me lightly, we both laughed. "And I can't date them, They're your friends and I respect it."

"Quit it, Just tell me who is it!" She giggles more. She's dazzling, her smile is radiant. Part of me wants to make her mine again.

"You Ivy. It's always been you."

"I have been loving you with all of me, longing for your forgiveness and acceptance. My heart belongs to you since then, you are my first love and also my greatest love. And if it's okay with you, I want you to be my last"

"Oh gosh, why are you not reacting to anything? Am I cringe oh shit, Is it cringe? I'm probably embarrassing myself, since you are inlove with someone else, I fucked it all up. Oh gosh I should know. Can we still be friends? Well it's okay if you are not comfortable anymore? I just confested my feelings. I'm sorry? Such a dumb thing for me to say? but I guess, in brighter side I can relate to taylos lyrics that I love you aint that the worst thing you've ever heard?" She said that so fast, I can't even comprehend anything. But I know One thing.

I brought my lips onto hers, immediately I can feel the all the electric in every inch of my body. She immediately responded to my kiss. I cup her cheeks. Damn I miss this girl so much. We stayed in that position for like three minutes.

"Wohoooo" We both jumped as we heard someone shouted. We look around and Everyone are surrounding us, with camera in their hands.

Alyssa quickly pulled me away from the crowd. Which is a bad idea, since all of the students are looking at us, even the teachers have their smiles plastered. I rolled my eyes. I also met Jamies eyes, I can tell she's annoyed.

"Congrats Alyssa" A nerd bowed at us. That's so cringe.

"Did someone broadcast it?" I whispered

"You can tell. Atleast everyone knows that we belong to each other, now."

"You are cringe"

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"You look like a fool Alyssa" Huh how did you see it!?" All of us are laughing, Dalancy, Inez,Me and Her.

"Duh it's all over the internet, I think all of the TVs in this school showed it? I was watching in the canteen" Dalancy said as she devours my fries.

"So everything!? I said to her!? Went public?" Alyssa exclaimed, I laugh. She buries her face to my shoulder. My god, she's really embarrassed.

[We have a dinner tonight, come home earlier] - Dumb shit

I rolled my eyes at his text.

"Guys I need to head home, My brother just texted me" Alyssa looked at me And pouted.

"We'll see tomorrow baby" I said and pecked her lips. She offered to give me a ride but I tolld her my brother booked me a cab.

To be honest, I don't want Selena see her and us together.

"Hi Ivy."

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