I did a tarot deck about them.
I asked about the general relation of them and me, and I got Reversed Justice : dishonesty, corruption, revenge. A quote that stuck out to me from the bio was, "Justice is the hardest of the Major Arcana : it refuses to give us an answer; on the contrary, it invites us to find the questions inside us, so that, while we are absorbed in the great illusions of society, we don't neglect the fact that every living being is easily moved and anxious to know the truth." I think it was telling me to search for the answers myself because I, and many others, are curious to know the truth about them.
I asked the relation between me and the proxy i assume to be following me, and I got Cups 2 : attraction, unity of opposites, loyalty, falling in love. The bio specifies it doesnt necessarily have to be romantic attraction. I assume the proxy, or entity, feels positively about me.
I asked for the vibe of the proxy, and I got Reversed Page of Wands : infantilism, recklessness, unreliability. A quote from the bio, "The Page of Wands has an adventurous spirit that wants to continually express itself, and he is ready to passionately defend his causes." It seems like proxy is quite reckless and childish, but also adventurous. It makes me think of Toby, but the childishness makes me think of Sally. I assume it's Toby, though - he's the proxy I keep seeing signs of. But, based on the scent of cigarettes i smelled the other night, it could be Tim / Masky.
I asked for two cards of what I should do. I got Reversed Judgement : excessive critism, sense of guilt, repressed vocation, and Reversed Wands 8 : letting the moment pass, sluggishness, being unprepared. I don't quite understand what they want me to do, but I think they have been talking about how I haven't been keeping track of stuff lately, and I'm not prepared for when I have experiences. Two quotes from judgement, "When we don't find comfort in fate, or things don't get better, we ask this Major Arcana card to be heard," and, "To fight the important battles, we need to know who we are. We must start searching, enlightened by our conscious. We must look at our limits, where evil touches us to the point of offending us, defend our fragility." My mental health hasn't been getting better, and I've been questioning a lot of stuff about myself. I think it's telling me to figure it out if I want to continue with this. The Wand 8's bio talks about how music can be refuge (and I do seek comfort in songs), and how we must seize ideas and how we are the next note. I believe the cards are telling me to take action, which I will. I have been silent too long.
I asked the deck to give me one more card, but I accidentally pulled out two and they both happen to be swords. Reversed Swords 3 : separation, trauma, alienation, and Swords 10 : final goodbye, survival, existential change. I believe the cards are telling, or warning, me that I will be left alone by my friends and others, which has already been partially happening. They're telling me bad things will happen soon and that I need to survive, that there will be major change happening. I start high school soon, so I wonder if they are talking about that, the creepypasta, or perhaps both or neither.
