The Mafia's Girl

Chapter 11. Help

Its been 3 weeks since I last saw Cole, I kept my promise and stayed away from him, its the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I keep telling myself that its for the best, that i'm doing this for him, but I know thats a lie, i'm doing this for me. After seeing what he did to himself, what his father did to him, after finding out that he killed his own father, I just cant handle all of it, its too much. I love him, I do, but two people with horrible pasts and years of trauma should not be together, we would destroy each other. 

I stand outside the door contemplating wether or not I should knock, this is the right thing to do, I need help and he's the only one who can help me. Just get it over with already, I knock on the door and wait, the door swings open seconds later. "Hey" he says smiling at me, "Hey, Derek" I tell him, "Mind if I come in?" I ask, he opens the door wider and gestures me inside. I go and sit on the couch in his room and he leans against his bed frame staring at me, "What's going on Annabelle?" he asks breaking the silence, I look down at my hands playing with my fingers, why is it always so hard for me to ask for help. "Hey, look at me" Derek saying coming over and sitting beside me, he takes my shaking hands in his and gives me an encouraging smile, "Whatever it is, you can tell me" he says reassuringly.

"Its not really something I have to tell you, more like ask" I tell him, "Well ask me then" he says, I take a deep breath. "Im a traumatised person who doesn't trust many people, I have never experienced love before so I don['t know how to act when someone says they love me, there is so much broken in my head and im sick of it. I want you to help me get over it, help me overcome my trauma" I tell him, he just sits there thinking. "I want to help you but i'm not sure i'm the best person to do that" he states, I look down tears forming in my eyes, I should have known that this would backfire. "Hey, listen to me for a second okay, I want to help you, but maybe having someone else here might help" he states, I look up at him confused, "What do you mean?" I ask.

"We have a file on you, it's customary when we get a new maid to have a file on them, yours is a bit more extensive than theirs but its needed. in that file it says you have a friend, a best friend, named Mia?" he asks and I burst into tears, oh my god, Mia, I completely forgot about her, how could I do that, she must be so worried about me. "Is she okay, I haven't spoke to her in so long, do you know if she's okay?" I ask him, Derek clears his throat, "I would say she's more than okay" he states before getting up and calling someone on his office phone, I just sit there confused. "Hey, yeah could you come up to my room, yeah we have a bit to discuss, thanks, see ya" he hangs up and stands by the door not looking at me. 

"if you could not freak out that would be awesome" he tells me before there is a knock on the door, Derek opens it and gestures someone inside, my mouth drops open and my eyes go wide. "Mia?" I ask, she smiles at me before looking at Derek, a strange look in her eyes, he stares back at her and it's confirmed, "HOLY FUCK!" I scream, "YOU TWO?" I ask feeling betrayed. They both just look at me with pity, well fuck your pity. "Annabelle, just let us explain, please?" Mia asks me, despite everything she is still my best friend, "Fine" I state, they come over and sit on the edge of the bed together facing me, "Explain" I tell them getting more pissed off by the second. 

"Okay, well first off yes me and Derek are together, we have been friends for a very long time and only started dating when I turned 18, I haven't been truthful with you Annie. My father has been involved with the Mafia for a very long time, he knew Cole's father, granted he hated him, so he wasn't so torn up when Cole killed him. But back to the story, I met Derek when we were young grew up with him, Cole was a challenge to get to know, he's kinds bipolar, he's hard to be friends with but he's a good guy, just had a shitty life. I was assigned to be your friend when my father found out about the abuse, he felt you needed protection, so he asked me to watch over you, at first it was a job but then I really became your friend, I care a lot about you Annie and i'm sorry I lied to you, I didn't have a choice. But know I hear you need help and i'm going to be the one to help you, you deserve happiness like I have found in Derek, i'm going to help you and Derek is going to help Cole" she finishes smiling at me. 

I sit there mulling everything over, yes i'm pissed she lied to me but I understand why, she has always been good to me and protected me, maybe I should give her a chance. "Okay" I say quietly, looking at the both of them, "You can help me" I tell her smiling slightly. She grins back and runs over to pull me into a bone crushing hug, thats all it takes for me to break down, god I missed her, Derek gets up and heads for the door, "I'll give you guys some privacy" he says opening the door, "Derek?" I ask, he stops and looks at me, I continue hugging Mia and whisper, "Thank you" he smiles and leaves.

Finally something good is happening to me, lets hope nothing ruins it.