I Give Up

Chapter 6

Irina POV:
 
  "What a week!" I heaved a loud sigh as I climbed the bunk bed and laid on the bed,my face on the pillow. It was a little small for me, but i couldn't care less. It was soft and my back was loving it, that is all that matters.
  I moved a little on the bed, and turned with my face now looking at the ceiling. My mind on an unending auto-replay of this week's events.
  The first day on duty didn't start off as bad as I expected. I woke up earlier than both of them. To be honest,I didn't sleep at all. Not that I couldn't,I just didn't want to.
   I freshened up and changed into my uniform. I tied my hair up into a bun and looked at myself in the mirror.
This doesn't suit me, but I can't have my hair getting in the way.
  I left the room feeling a little anxious on how I should start. Maybe I'll start off with the rooms,once he's up I'll make him breakfast.
  I took the necessary appliances with me and walked to one of his rooms. After two hours,I was through.
"Finally." I sighed and then I heard a voice at the back of my mind.
  "You ungrateful thing, how dare you take so long to clean up this room?! Wait until my mother gets home." That voice,who said that to me? Did I just remember something? I did,well in a way I didn't.
  I frowned, feeling disappointed. Wait, that means I haven't lost my memory, it's actually going to come back.
  A huge smile appeared on my face and I continued my work diligently. Much to my surprise,it wasn't hard. Actually,I kept having a feeling of dejavu, like I've done this before but i know it's not possible. Well,I know it's not possible that I've done this here before.
   In the afternoon,I started to get worried about Vladimir. He hasn't left his room since last night, I've knocked on his door on several occasions but he didn't open the door neither did he say that I could come in.
    "Missy, where's your mind always wandering off to?" Shirley asked as she stuffed a mouthful of her meal into her mouth.
   "Slow down, Shirley. Is something wrong, Missy?" Rose asked and I couldn't tell if she was sincerely worried about me or she was just trying to be nice.
    "Ma... Master,do...does he usually stay in his room all day?" I looked away from their gazes. Why do you even care?
   "He's not in his room, because today is....." Her voice trails off making more questions appear in my head.
   "He's not in the penthouse, that's all we can say." She completed her sentence
    "Okay." Rose and Shirley continued talking amongst themselves but my head was filled with thoughts of his whereabouts.
  I decided to wait for him in front of his room but ended up sitting on the floor and falling asleep.
  Around midnight I think,I woke up to the loud sound of glass shattering on the floor. I looked around, feeling very confused. I saw him, standing around the broken glass with another bottle in his hand. He didn't look like himself,he looked tired. That was the first time I could read his face. I approached him slowly,still feeling a little groggy. I shook my head trying to clear it.
    I looked at my fellow coworkers and wondered why they just stood there. They looked like they wanted to help him, but all they did was watch.
    "Master,let me help you." I said  politely and was about putting his hand over my shoulder when he pushed me away.
   I fell on the broken glasses,my hands and legs getting bruised badly and I couldn't help but wince. He looked at me, and I didn't understand why but my heart ached. His eyes held so much pain, misery,guilt, sadness and betrayal. It really astonished me.
    "Don't fucking touch me." He ordered and I could perceive the alcohol from his mouth and body. How much did he drink? Doesn't he have a high alcohol tolerance? He must have drank a lot to be this drunk.
   He tried walking, but ended up nearly falling down on a broken glass. I stood up immediately and held him back up, as he pushed me away again but I didn't budge.
   "Didn't I just fucking tell you not to....." I cut him off.
     "You can barely take a step without tripping,all I want to do is get you safely into your room. Consider this as one of my plans to seduce you, just let me help you, please." I don't know why I used that as an excuse, but I just needed him to let me help him.
    "I won't fall for you." He replied and I couldn't help the smile that showed up on my face.
    "We'll just have to see about that." I put his hand over my shoulder and took little steps trying not to go above his pace.
    I dropped on the bed, panting and out of breath.
   "You're heavier than I imagined actually." I murmured to myself as I removed his shoes and tucked him in.
   "This..... this is nice." He said his voice barely above a whisper but I heard it. The way he said it, broke me. It was as though he hadn't been treated right since he was born. He said it with so much pain.
   I decided to watch after him just for a little longer. He looked so peaceful as he slept. It actually reminded me that he's also human and not a cold-hearted killing machine like everyone sees him as.
  I sat on a chair that's facing the bed and decided to close my eyes for just a few seconds and in the end I fell asleep just like last time. I woke up in the early hours of the morning to find him shivering.
   I touched his forehead and removed my hand immediately. He has a fever, should I call the doctor? I'll get Nina. I looked back at his weak state and felt reluctant to leave his side. It felt as though me staying here would give him some form of comfort rather than me leaving to get him help. In the end,I went to call her.
   "Nina? Nina?" I called her name a couple of times before she opened the door. She was only wearing underwear and her hair was all over her face.
   "Sorry to wake you, it's just, Master's sick and needs treatment." I hoped she could actually hear and understand what I was saying to her.
   "He actually sent you to call me?" She sounded so surprised.
   "No he didn't, I'm the one who's telling you to go check on him. He's running temperature and I don't want it to get worse."
  "Why do you care so much?"
  "He's still a human being,is he not? Just please go change and come to his room quickly." I answered rather annoyed at her question. I walked back to the room and my heart ached once more to see him in such a state.
   "How can someone as powerful as he is still have no one who cares enough to take care of him?" I asked myself as I covered his body with the duvet.
   Nina came into the room shortly after,she didn't touch him though. Every time she needed to come in contact with his body she would ask me to do it and then I would tell her my observations.
   "Girl,Oh My Goodness,why didn't you say anything?" She covered her mouth with her palms.
   "What are you talking about?" I followed her eyes and they were on my hands and legs. That's when I felt the pain from all my bruises hit me all at once.
    "You're seriously injured,why didn't you say anything?" She led me to a chair and began to examine my wounds.
    "I guess I was a little preoccupied with taking care of him that I forgot I had these."
   "You're saying it so casually, Girl, you're seriously injured. Some pieces of glass actually went into your skin. I need to pull them out to properly access your injury."
    "Is there a less painful way to do that. Maybe you should sedate me or something."
   "Normally, I would do that, but you're body is still weak from your previous injuries. It would be risky to do that."
   "So what are you saying?" I asked,even though I already knew the answer.
   "You will have to endure the pain, I'm so sorry, Girl."
   "It's okay, just get it over with." I closed my eyes ready for the excruciating pain I knew I was about to feel.
    "How did you even get this injured?" She asked while putting on her gloves.
   "Initially when I had tried to help him,he pushed me to it." While answering her question,my focus was on him.
    "I know what might ease the pain, while I'm removing the pieces of glass, imagine you giving him a taste of his own medicine." She smiled at me.
   "You really think that will work?"
   "There is only one way to find out  I'm about to start,are you ready?"
    "I'm not, but go ahead." I did as she said. I imagined him getting a taste of his own medicine.
   I know what she meant by that statement, but each time I remember that look in his eyes,my heart would ache. So I ended up picturing him surrounded by joy and peace. He was living in a dacha, away from civilization but he was happy. He had the most beautiful smile on his face as he watered the flowers in his garden. Someone had their hands wrapped around his waist but refused to show their face. He laughed at the person's trick and turned around, which made me not able to see neither of their faces. When they had finally turned around,the person I saw him laughing with made me jolt out of my chair.
   "What's wrong? I was only trying to tell you that I'm through." Nina asked concern etched on her face.
   "I...I am... fine" I stuttered
    "Are you sure? Your face looks pale." She asked again.
   "I'm sure,so since you're through,why don't you retire to your room?" I was practically pushing her out of the room.
   "Wait,so these are his drugs, please ensure he eats something,if not the drugs may cause more harm than good. Also,he should be on bed rest, don't let him get up except necessary. Advice him to focus on getting better and not on his work, okay?"
   "Okay." I nodded taking a mental note of everything she just said.
   "Alright,if he gets worse,you know where to find me. I'll check on him in the morning, Good luck." She stressed the two last word before leaving the room.
   Why does everyone also wish me Good luck when it comes to you? Are you that difficult? I don't even know why I'm caring about his well-being this much,Whereby he only treated me just for me to remember and tell him what he wants. I'm still yet to do that though, but it's all a working progress.
  I went to the bathroom to ease myself and when I came back I saw him muttering something to himself but from his facial expression,I could tell he was having a nightmare.
   "It's okay, Vladimir. I can't say that things will get better because there might never but that's still fine. All you have to do is keep your chin up and never give up, what you want will happen eventually." I didn't know why I said that but it seemed to have calmed him down. I got a wet rag and gently dabbed away the sweat that was on his face. Looking at him,I could tell I won't be leaving this room tonight. My heart wouldn't let me to.