Mine. (𝚉𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚢𝚒 𝙵𝙵)

Determination

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Yibo was sitting on the hospital room, watching the scenery outside of the large window from the bed, Jackson was beside him sitting on the chair while holding the little girl who was wrapped in the fine clothes. The little sweetheart was deep asleep. Jackson stayed just silent staring at the little life in his arms. After some time, Yibo turned around towards him.

"..Jackson, could you please do me a favor?"

The other not knowing what it was stared at him for a long time, no words uttered next. He nodded sincerely.

"Tell me Bobo", Jackson said, "I..I can..but not much"

Yibo shook his head softly, "It's not much..I ask for.."

Jackson again nodded taking a deep breath, he glanced at the baby girl in his arms and back at his best friend.

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Zhan was putting all the Yibo's belonging in the car trunk, he sighs and looks at Ji li, deep sadness..was within him. Ji li seemed to notice and placed an assuring hand on his shoulder.

"Zhan..stay strong, will you?"

Zhan sighs and looks down, his eyes darting on the floor for quite some time before he looked back again at the other.

"No Ji li, I feel like the weight has been lifted off from my shoulders..maybe its because now Bobo knows that I am Zhan and not Xian..."

Ji li stares at him understanding the situation and unexplainable feelings, he nodded softly patting the other.

"I..", Zhan said softly, "..I just need a chance..just one more chance to get near him and..and I will prove that my love for him..is greater than anything...I know that I can never compare to Xian..but atleast..I can stay with him till the last breath.."

Ji li listened staying silent, he looked at the other with emotions.

"..But why do I feel like I don't have a chance now..Ever..", Zhan uttered with sadness, the emotions palpable. Ji li immediately shook his head trying to reassure the other as much as he can.

"No..no, don't say that Zhan..as much as I saw you from the childhood, you are the type of a person who knows no limit, no hesitation..not a word called 'give up', a fearless person..don't you remember yourself Zhan?"

Zhan stayed silent, he knew he was the person who knew nothing called giving up and was fearless..but suddenly, he changed..no..he didn't himself, someone changed him. He now fears..that what if his bobo will never look at him again..talk with him again..never let him come close to him again..what if Yibo leaves and never comes back? What will he do?..will he end his life?..yes..that was the easy way out..he will end his life and all the suffering he feels without Yibo will go away...but no..no he can't end his life like this..if he dies..he can never see his bobo yet again..so he will live..live till he reaches his grave, he will live, so he can have even a slight glance from his bobo..he can atleast watch him secretly and be happy when he is alive.

Zhan looked at Ji li straight in the eyes, "..I won't give up Ji li..I don't want to..I will apologise even a thousand times for the one who holds my heart..but I will never think of giving up, never ever.."

Ji li smiled softly, he can see the pain in Zhan's eyes but also a determination..a determination to the life he will live and will survive on..a pledge to the heavens and the earth that he will make his bobo look at him the same way he looked at Xian..a promise to Xian that he'll take care of Bobo till his last breath.

The eyes said everything Zhan had to say and Ji li understood..oh so clearly.

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Otherside,

Yibo slowly got out of the car while carrying his little daughter in his arms. He rejected Jackson's help who stood there with his arm out, When he noticed that other didn't wanted his help, he just went ahead of him. They were in the cemetery. Jackson went and stood infront of one of the grave.

"..It is here", he utters softly looking at Yibo who approaches with slowly, hesitant steps.

Yibo stared at the grave, the name was carved 'Xiao Wuxian'. He wished..had hope of just even a slight bit that his husband was still alive..but the grave he saw, made his heart break into millions and millions of pieces..a very sharp pain made its way, he while trembling crouched down, the little girl still in his arms.

Yibo placed his shaky hands on top of the grave, he stared at it. Tears started to well up in his eyes, he felt his world shattering into pieces..

"..This..this is what you give me after telling even death cannot do us apart...You are a liar Wuxian.."

Yibo gulps, the tears slowly made its way down his eyes. His throat heavy.

"..A big liar..I-if you wanted to let go of me like this..why did you even entered into my life? Made me fall in love with you. I-in that Ferris Wheel, why did you proposed me for marriage?"

Yibo's voice cracked..he stared at the grave with undying longing and pain. He just wished it was all a lie..his husband was still alive and this was just a prank done to him.

"..I-i hate you Xian..I hate you", he sobbed, "W-why did you saved me?..why!?..W-we could have died together right?..w-we could have together gone to hell or heaven I don't care..a-as long as I am with you I wouldn't mind dying A-ah-Xian.."

Yibo's body trembled. The baby in his arms started crying but he didn't mind it. "T-this child..i-it was your dream right?..b-but you are gone without even meeting her..ah-xian..I-i..I am sorry..I.."

Jackson crouched down beside him and wrapped his arm around the other's shoulder, his heart breaking seeing his best friend in this condition.

"..I-i couldn't even see you for the last time Ah-xian..I-i couldn't hug you..kiss you goodbye..", Yibo Sobbed with pain, his voice shaky and cracking, "..I-i couldn't even say you a proper goodbye ah-xian..I-i..I miss you so much..I-i don't know how can I live without you..I-i am still alive just for the sake of our baby girl.."

Jackson rubbed his shoulder, he himself was crying while looking down. Hearing Yibo's heart breaking words..he couldn't hold himself..he was in pain..a deep pain.

"..I-i love you okay?..I-i love you more than you do..I-i hate to live in this world where you are not there Ah-xian..I-i am sorry I couldn't have a proper goodbye w-with you..", Yibo stroked the grave gently, "..Y-you are my everything..everything that I ask for..e-everything that i'll ever love..ever sacrifice my heart to.."

Jackson suppressed his sobs, he looked down wiping his tears from his other hand. Little baby girl kept crying continuously. Yibo rocked the baby gently while he himself was trembling and crying.

"..X-xian..please rest well..j-just remember that your bobo is always here..waiting to meet you again", he smiled with tears painfully, "..not in this life..b-but maybe in next life we will never be separated like this..even if we do..I-i won't let you go..I will follow you.."

Jackson watched with pain..he hugged Yibo immediately who cried in his arms. Jackson slowly took the baby from the broken boy's arms and rocked her softly to calm her..while his other hand kept rubbing Yibo's arm trying to sooth him.

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