Mine. (𝚉𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚢𝚒 𝙵𝙵)

The wait

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Yibo was rocking the baby girl gently while resting his back on the headboard of the bed. His eyes were in the large balcony door infront of him. The glass door was open and he can see the star filled sky, no moon was there. He looked down at the little girl who was asleep now after so much crying.

"Mian..only if you knew my pain"

He smiled softly and looked back at the night sky. He glanced around the room and saw his and Xian's picture everywhere on the wall. They were so happy together, why did god have to do this. What were their fault? They loved eachother and just wanted to grow old together. But everything got taken away from Yibo, leaving only his broken heart and this little token of love from Wuxian which was in his arms.

The present he wouldn't ask for more. Now he realised the meaning of that dream he saw, Xian getting lost in their secret love place. He now knew the reason that his Xian was just there to meet him one last time, to look at his husband one last time. He knew understood Xian's longing eyes which he saw staring at him oh so lovingly..like he will never see him again, now he understood everything. Wuxian was looking at him as much as he wanted because now he can never see him again.

The thought only brought tears in his eyes. He closed his eyes, his heart hurting like nothing. Why did Xian had to leave him with this responsibility. Only if Mian was not there, Yibo had already joined his husband in the stars and would have been more than happy. His hands trembled slightly and with that action Mian woke up and started crying again.

Yibo immediately tried to shush her, but he alone was so disheartened, how can he go on with this. He rocked her while crying himself. Suddenly the door opened and Yibo looked towards it, he saw Zhan entering with soft look on his face.

"I-i..I was just passing by and heard Mian crying..so", Zhan uttered while scratching his nape and looking down. He cannot look at the others' eyes, not without fear and shame. Yibo watched him and looked away, he placed his crying child on his lap and wiped his tears with his sleeve. Zhan stood there with his head down.

Yibo patted his child gently completely ignoring the other was here. Zhan knowing this slowly left the room without any words, he closed the door behind him and fell down on the ground slowly while leaning on the door. His heart felt like it's been stabbed a thousand times. The tears started flowing from.his eyes. He never knew the situation will be this bad at all.

Otherside, Yibo started crying too while rocking his daughter softly. He hated himself for hurting Zhan this much, but he knew that was to be like this. He belonged to Wuxian and only Xian, nobody can change that. After crying for what felt like hours, Zhan slowly stood up and went to his own room with his limp body. He opened his door and got inside, it felt so empty within himself. But he knew he took this risk, now he can do nothing but just hope the time when Yibo finally allows him in his warmth again.

It is hard, yet, he don't want to give up, he can never give up when it comes to the boy who grips his heart. The only one he ever laid his eyes on, the one he always will choose, the only one who can make him helpless, careless and also hopeless. He is hopelessly inlove with his brother-in-law and he can't help it.

He laid on the bed, he had already taken the habit of Yibo laying beside him and cuddling. Now he feels empty, the warmth all gone and all left is a hollow space. He couldn't sleep on like this. He sighed and hugged the pillow imagining Yibo in it. He fell asleep like that, with so much struggle.

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Next morning, Mrs. Xiao was making breakfast while Mr. Xiao was sitting on the dining chair watching her move around in the kitchen. "We all were so happy..it all shattered now", he utters softly with a sigh. Mrs. Xiao turned around towards him and turned off the stove. She came closer and sat infront of him with sad expression present on her face.