LOVE THE WAY IT HURTS

1 : The Beginning

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How many times can a heart break before we realize it's time to let the love go? Pon didn't know the answer, the only thing he knows as long as he can still endure the pain, he will still fight for his love for Sailub, even if it was obvious that the other one doesn't have any idea.

Pon liked Sailub ever since they were young, they grew up together because their family are close friends from the university. Pon doesn't know when he fell for Sailub. Maybe it was the first time he carried him on his back because of his injury when he fell off the bike, or when he helped him once when someone was bullying him and since then Sailub never left his side, the older man was always there to protect him.

He and Sailub are very close, because their age difference is only three years. Pon was still in university for some reason while Sailub started managing his parents' business. Since he and Sailub are so close, their parents often joke that there is no problem if they will end up with each other, their family was ready to support them. Whenever their parents joked like that, Pon couldn't get rid of the joy in his heart, maybe because Sailub didn't have any other reaction, that he didn't reject the joke, in that way there was a little hope in Pon's heart.

But everything changed, when Sailub met a newly hired racer in their company. That racer is beautiful, mature and really skilled. Pon started to realize that Sailub seemed drawn with this racer when Sailub invited him even if the circle didn't seem comfortable.

When Pon arrived at Sailub's house, his eyes were met by Sailub sitting close to the unfamiliar guy, they were whispering and Sailub kept smiling, this made him feel a pang of jealousy, no one had been close to Sailub like that more than him.

" Oh P'Pon you came! Can you help me here? " Topten asked and gave him three bottles of beer. Pon just accepted it and followed Topten to the garden. His eyes didn't leave Sailub and that guy. After Pon placed the beer on the table, he jumped when someone wrapped his arms around his shoulder. He rolled his eyes when he found out it was just Michael.

" Woah if looks could kill, I'm sure Pat is already dead. " Michael said while laughing.

" What are you talking about? " Pon asked trying his best not to sound irritated.

" Nothing. I just want to say, that man sitting beside P'Sai is our new racer, his name is Pat. He's really skilled, Pavel almost lost to him. " Michael stated trying to calm Pon.

" I will never lose to him, okay? Phi, how's university? " Pavel asked and gave him a beer which he took without hesitating. His eyes already left the two sitting close to each other in the side of the pool. Pon really wanted to kick that Pat, if Pavel didn't come.

" It's good, I just need to finish my project and I'll graduate soon. " Pon answered and smiled.

" That's good, what's your plan? Do you want to work in the garage or will you manage your family business? " Pavel continued.

His plan? Actually, he really didn't have any plans other than marrying Sailub. Pon smiled at his dream and looked at Sailub, his face darkened when he saw Pat's hands sliding into Sailub's lap and the other seemed to not mind. He is really jealous, he wanted to pull Sailub away from Pat but what will be his reason? He doesn't even have the right.

Since he entered the house, Sailub didn't even notice him or he didn't even try to find if he had already arrived. Pon felt like his heart was being stabbed a thousand times. Sailub is so close to Pat and the older man seems to not mind how Pat hands is holding his lap and almost kissing his cheeks from trying to whisper.