LOVE THE WAY IT HURTS

7: You like him?

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When Pon arrived at Sailub's house, he noticed that silence was invading the house. He couldn't help but sigh, usually in this kind of situation, the circle was already gathered here to decide whether they will go to the bar or just stay here to celebrate. Pon approached the door and went inside. He walked around the kitchen to find Sailub, but there was no one there. He looked for him in the pool, but only silence greeted him. Since he felt like there was no one downstairs, he decided to go to Sailub's room. He knocked three times and waited for a response, it barely took a second before the door burst open and Sailub drew him into an embrace. The older man's chin lay against his shoulder, and his arms were wrapped around his waist. Pon comforted Sailub by softly caressing his back. This is the first time Pavel and him have fought, and Pooh is also upset with him. Pon was also unhappy, but he chose to set aside his feelings.

Sailub needed him.

They stayed in that position, until Sailub finally let go and pulled him inside the room. They sat on the side of the bed and Sailub hugged him again from the side, holding his waist and resting his chin on his shoulder.

" I messed up. I didn't know what to do. I always tried my best to keep the team spirit but I ruined it. " Sailub said while there were tears forming in his eyes. Pon hated this sight of Sailub. He hated to see the older blaming himself but what can he say? He actually is the one to blame here. But Pon chose not to say what his thoughts were.

" The damage has been done. No one is perfect, we always make mistakes. The best thing to do is to apologize and explain it to Pavel. " He answered wiping the tears away from Sailub. The older let go of him and turn his face to look at Pon. He was holding Pon's hand that was wiping his tears. He intertwined it with him and rested it on his lap.

" I really don't know what's happening to me. " Sailub stated. Pon watched him play with their hands. The sight of him and Pat suddenly appeared in his mind. This made him wonder if Sailub has feelings for the new racer. Just thinking about it, Pon couldn't help but feel a pain in his heart. He didn't want to confirm it, but it's the only way to answer what was really happening to Sailub.

" Do you like him Phi? " Pon felt there was a lump in his throat while asking it. His heart is heavy and it keeps beating so fast. He didn't want to hear his answer. Right now, he regretted that he asked that question. Sailub slowly lifts his head up and meets his eyes. He was looking at him like he was studying him. Pon wanted to understand what Sailub's eyes mean. There was something he couldn't truly identify.

" I don't know but I think I'm happy when I'm around him? " Sailub answered while studying Pon's expression.

Hearing the older one answer made Pon's entire body ache. He hated asking that question because at the moment he wanted to cry and beg Sailub to stay away from Pat.

It made him realize that no matter how long you've been with someone, if his heart doesn't want you, he really can't love you.

Pon gulped and tried to calm himself. This is not the time to show his vulnerability. Sailub saw the change in Pon's eyes and the way the younger one looked down in their hands and slowly removed his own hand from his. He looked at Pon standing and laughing.

" It's so obvious that you like him. Finally, the old man is starting to like someone. I thought you were going to be alone, forever. " Pon teased while his back was facing Sailub. He is trying to stop his tears from falling, he didn't want Sailub to ask him why he was crying but Sailub could feel it. He can feel the fakeness of his laugh, the sadness in his voice when he teases him and the way his shoulder trembles. Sailub noticed it all, when he thought he could ignore it, he watched as Pon looked at him and approached him. The sudden embrace of the younger made him shocked. Pon hugged him tight as if he was afraid that if he let go, he would lose him. He buried his face on Sailub's shoulder. This sight of Pon is something Sailub can't see.

" I don't know if I like him the way you think. Maybe I just felt good around him. He is not that bad. He is really hard working. " Sailub explained while hugging Pon.

" You don't need to explain, just like you said, if you like someone, it has nothing to do with me. " Pon replied and let go of him. The younger man smiled at him but it's obvious that it's a fake one. " I just want to hug you, I felt bad that it's the first time you like someone, knowing how old you are. "

Sailub raised his eyebrows when he heard what Pon said, and the younger man couldn't help but laugh. This is how much Sailub affects him. He can change his mood and make him happy in a split second.

Pon is really happy with him but if Sailub was happy with someone else? Isn't it better to let him go?

Pon was brought back to reality as he felt Sailub tickling him. They laid in bed, attacking one another. Their laughing filled the room, and Pon wishes he could stop the moment and stay there forever. He hopes things to stay the same between them and Sailub. But fate had another plan for him.