LOVE THE WAY IT HURTS

10: His Border

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Pon sighed as he stared in front of the gate of Sailub's house. He didn't know if it's really a good idea that he came here. He was scared of Sailub's reaction. He was scared to confirm that everything about them is falling apart. He was scared to finally realize the truth that he was in the dead end.

" P'Pon! You came! Let's go inside! " Top said and dragged him but he stopped the younger one, who gave him a confused look.

" I'm not invited. " He muttered as they stopped in front of the door.

" I'm sure P'Sai wanted to see you. " Top answered, comforting him.

But what if he didn't? Pon didn't hold his hope up. Before he could even answer, the door opened and he was met with Sailub looking at him.

" What are you doing here? " Sailub asked and that questions were like a knife killing Pon over and over again. Pon didn't want to answer so he freed himself from Topten hold and walked away. He heard the younger one called him but he continued walking until he reached his car before he could enter, Sailub held his hand.

Pon took a deep breath, trying his best to endure all the emotions that were making him weak, before he faced Sailub who was looking at him worriedly.

Oh fuck that worried look that didn't even mean anything. Fuck everything.

" I'm sorry I didn't mean to sound like I didn't want to see you. It's just that you know... I don't want to have a problem. " Sai explained.

" I'm the problem now. " Pon replied barely audible but enough for Sai to hear it.

" No... It- " Before Sai could explain, Pon cut him.

" It's okay, you don't have to explain. If you don't want me here then I'll leave. " He said and turned to leave but he heard their friends voices.

" Pon why are you leaving? " Nut asked while looking at him and Sailub.

" P'Nut, something came up, so I need to go. " He lied, Pooh who was beside Nut understood what was happening so he rushed beside Pon and dragged him inside the house.

" Pooh! " He shouted while trying to stop his best friend.

" I invited you! It's a team celebration, so you are welcome here! " Pooh exclaimed as they entered the house followed by everyone.

Pat, Topten and Michael who were inside the house looked at them, confused. When Pon met Pat's eyes, he wanted to roll his eyes, but he thought it was not a good act since Sailub is watching him.

Pooh dragged him to sit on the sofa and gave him a drink. He couldn't help but sigh and drink it in one shot.

" Woah! The night is young P'Pon! Are you planning to sleep early? " Michael teases and Pon just curses him in his mind.

Nut, who was watching the whole situation, patted Sailub on the shoulder, which made the older man look at him confused. Nut just shrugged his shoulder as an answer and left the man to sit beside his boyfriend, Ping. Sailub, who was left standing, couldn't help but massage his temple. He just hoped that this celebration would end well.

Pon felt dizzy, so he decided to stop drinking and prepare a coffee for himself in the kitchen while everyone was still busy chatting and drinking. He enjoys the silence in the kitchen, but when he hears the familiar irritating voice, he can't help but roll his eyes. The devil in disguise is finally here to pester him and act as a victim.

What do you want? "Pon asked, raising his eyebrows while picking up his coffee.

"Why are you here?" Pat asked, which made him furrow his eyebrows.

"Why do you care? It's not like you own this house." He replied and turned to walk away when Pat suddenly grabbed his hand, causing him to drop the coffee glass and shatter it on the floor. The commotion was heard outside as they hurriedly went to check the kitchen. They saw the broken glass and Pat's crying.

"What happened?! " Sailub asked, and Pon couldn't help but jump back by the older one's voice.

"I didn't mean to! He grabbed me and I dropped it accidentally!" Pon explained, trying to defend himself, but Pat interrupted him.

"It's not true. He warned me to stay away from you. He said he likes you and he's only yours. If I tried to get between you two, he would not just do this. " Pat said, countering Pon's statement.

"He would never do that! You're clearly lying!" Pooh defended his best friend. Sailub, who didn't know what to do with all the information, turned to look at Pon.

"Sailub, believe me. You know me, I would never do that," Pon said while trying his best to stop himself from crying.

"Let's calm down first," Nut stated, but the tension stayed the same.

"Pon, it's better for you to leave first; let's talk later," Sailub muttered. Pon looked at him in disbelief.

"P'Sai, why is it P'Pon that you want to leave? He is our friend!" Pooh shouted clearly angry with the man's action. Pavel was looking at Sailub disappointed; Nut and Ping couldn't believe what he did. While Michael and Top just look at each other.

"But this is a celebration for the team, and he is not part of the team." Sailub turned to look at Pooh and answered firmly. "Pon...just leave now..I promised I'll talk to you later. "

Pon looks straight into Sailub's eyes when the older man turns his attention back to him.

Perhaps it was Sailub's last words, how Sailub protected Pat by ignoring him, the way the old man said he should leave, or the unexpected revelation of the truth about his feelings for Sailub that drove him to his border. That night after he left Sailub house, he also left there his shattered heart and the Pon, who loved Sailub more than himself.

He accepted the job and bought a ticket to New York. He left his country early in the morning without turning back and saying goodbye.

He left just like Sailub wanted,
but this time he also left his life.

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I was thinking of publishing the chapters on different days but I realized it would be better to publish it all in one day, I don't know when I will upload another chapter for this story.

Or should I just end it here? 🤣 What do you think🤣

I didn't even know why I wrote this, I was hurting the whole time writing every chapter.