A Struck of a Lightning!

Chapter 6; Question

Question

"That's pretty much it, I hope you enjoy your first day of class. You are all dismissed."

"Shannon, tara sa canteen... Tas diretso kila Iris." Tumango ako it inayos ang bag ko, I looked at Natalya. i saw it from my peripheral vision, lalapit sana siya kaso na una na akong kausapin nila Blair. "Natalya, going home already?" She nodded, now she's walking towards her seat, tumango na lang ako. Nakalabas na ng classroom ang mga kaibigan ko, "Shopping?" I asked, she nodded again. "Just going to buy some stuff, may kulang ako eh. And then cafe after."

"I would like to come but my friends already made plans, I'm sorry..." She picked up her bag and walked towards me. "Let's go? Sabay na tayo lumabas," I agreed.

"Shannon," Maddie waved at me, pinuntahan ko na sila sa kinauupuan nila. They have drinks so I went on the counter to order drinks for me, pag balik ko busy nilang pinag uusapan ang possibilities ng mga magiging mag kaka-group. "Isn't it early to talk about that?"

Lewis claps, "Thank you for saying that Shannon, Blair and Maddie are already stressing me out. Wag niyo nga pag usapan yan." Tumawa si Blair, "Paano tamad ka kaya nag wo-worry ka about groupings... For your information, ikaw ang dahilan kung bakit kami nag uusap ng ganito ni Maddie, ayaw na namin ma-stress sa kagaya mo."

In the middle of their conversation I receive a message from Daddy, he's going on a trip. He will be home after a few days, he didn't specify where he is going pero hindi na ako nag tanong pa. What's important is nag sabi siya so hindi na ako mag wo-worry pa pag hindi ko agad siya nakita.

Who is with Mommy right now? Baka wala siyang kasabay mag dinner? "Guys I don't think I will be able to go to Iris's." They stopped and looked at me, "Why?"

"Daddy is going on a trip, walang kasama si Mommy mag dinner, I'm sorry."

When I went home I found Mommy in our living room, she was wiping her tears, as if she knew that I had already arrived at our house. She then smiled widely at me, "Mommy," I smiled at her too. I am having a second thought if I will address the fact that she cried or I will just ignore it. I felt a small pain in my chest, our days in our house flashback.

Mommy crying, daddy shouting, them fighting... It was a series of events, except that I already have an expectation of what will happen, like a prediction. And I never fail, I'm terrified. I don't have any idea of what is going on, or what their problem is, I don't know if I will be able to help, or will they ever need my help...

It just breaks me to know and to be aware of the fact that I know that I grew up with parents who don't keep their secrets, and now, I am watching them do all the things they don't usually do.

They are hiding something from me, and I don't want that. But they didn't raise me to push too hard on things, they raise me as someone to accept something that has happened, or will happen. So what am I supposed to do? Watching my Family fall apart?

"Mommy?" I called Mommy, I don't know if this is the right thing to do, but really meron bang mali kapag ang gusto mo lang naman ay tumulong?