A Struck of a Lightning!

Chapter 7; Know

Know

My worries about our Family remained and even if I want to trust them, it made me question everything.

Even though mukhang nagkaayos na kami ni Mommy matapos ang nangyari kanina, alam kong pareho kaming komportable. Walang nagsasalita sa hapag kainan, natigilan ako sa pagkain at naki ramdam, I sighed. I know Mommy heard me but at this point she was trying her best to avoid any conversation with me.

Which is great kase mas lalo makakatulong sa pamilya namin yun, mas marami kaming mareresolbang problema. I sighed again, nung mas napansin ko wala talagang balak si Mommy na mag umpisa ng usapan hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili ako, ako na ang gagawa ng paraan so that we could at least talk.

"I'm sorry, Mommy..."

Agad nangilid ang luha ni Mommy kaya mas na gulat ako, tumayo siya mula sa kinauupuan at nag lakad papunt sakin, niyakap niya ako ng mahigpit at hindi nag salita. Hinayaan ko lang siyang humagulgol.

"Mommy... I understand it now, you just want to protect me right? Kaya kahit hirap na hirap kana, kayo ni Daddy. Hindi niyo magawang sabihin sakin kung ano ang problema, kung ano yung mga nangyayari..." Bahagyang lumuwag ang pag kakayakap ni Mommy, para bang nakahingga siya ng maluwag dahil sa sinabi ko. I breathe deeply, then there is really a problem.

Doon ko mas lalong na kompirma.

Mommy did not deny it, but she felt relaxed by my statement... They want to keep the problem to themselves, napatango ako sa sarili... Edi sana mas ginalingan pa nila ang pagtatago ng problema diba?

Hindi yung ilang beses ko silang naaabutan nag tatalo, ilang beses nilang pinaparamdam na nag away sila sa hapag sa pamamagitan ng hindi pag uusap, mag o-out of town ang isa, ganun din and isa.

They don't want me to know, they should have acted more like it, now they can't stop me from trying to figure things out now. Because I know whatever is bothering the both of them, almost causing their marriage to end, I know it's serious and it's not something that I will ignore as their child.

"I'm sorry Mommy, okay? Hahayaan ko na kayo ni Daddy, hindi ko na kayo kukulitin na ipaalam sakin."

Tumango si Mommy at muling hinigpitan ang yakap, "Thank you for understanding Shannon, my dear darling daughter..."

After a few seconds she returned to her seat, dun pa lang kami nag patuloy ulit sa pagkain, hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili. Hindi ko kayang matulog dito ngayon gabi, I need to breath. "Mom, I'm going to sleep at Maddie's."

I saw how surprised she was, I immediately smiled at her trying to reassure her. "It's not about what happened earlier, okay? It was already our plan before I even came home, okay?" A lie. It was not on our plan, I wanted to come home because I wanted to be with Mommy, but what happened made me want to leave. I need to rest my mind.

Hindi pa rin sumagot si Mommy, "Mom, don't overthink things, and I will not too. Okay?" She smiled.

After eating I texted Maddie to inform her that I will be sleeping in their house, I went to my room to ready my school bag for our class tomorrow, iniwan ko na ang mga lecture books na hindi ko naman kailangan, dinala ko na rin lahat ng kailangan ko para sa mga homework namin. Maddie told me that she was just about to go home, paalis pa lang daw siya Iris. I told her saka na ako pupunta kung malapit na siya.