A Struck of a Lightning!

Chapter 4; Risk

Risk

"It was your first time? Why try? Why risk?"

And then I realized what I was doing was right, and his question made me realize it! "Why not risk it? To be honest the people around me have been risking everything they've got, that's the only thing I'm lacking..." I smiled, and it was genuine because I know I was happy with what I'm doing.

"I got it from my friends, they were all busy taking risks, I'm afraid that I'm being left behind. I think it's about time for me to risk something too. At the end it's either I will win or I will learn."

He smiled at me too, akala ko wala na siyang sasabihin, it took him a little while bago siya nag salita. "You're not left behind, you're never behind... It's just that it's still not your turn, but it's good that you stepped out and tried to do something about your fate, you know."

"You're doing great," he paused. "And I'm not saying that because you need to hear it, I just want to say it because I want you to know that you are appreciated for every effort you make in your life. You were doing great owning your life," he smiled again. "I wish to be just like you." His words were comforting, I don't know if kung tama ba siya, na kailangan kong marinig or malaman na appreciated para sa mga efforts ko sa sarili.

We talked for a little more hanggang sa putol na ng kusa yung video dahil tapos na ang oras, my little conversation with him made me at ease. Muli kong naalala yung mga nangyayari dito sa bahay but for some reason hindi ko na masyado yun iniintindi.

I woke up early after that day, wala pa rin sina Mommy at Daddy kaya hindi pa rin gaano magulo rito sa bahay, kahit pa saka lang naman sila nag tatalo pag akala nila wala pa ako. I arrived at our practice on time, kakaunti pa lang ang nandun, halos kadarating lang rin ni Natalya nung dumating ako. We proceed on script reading pahabol na lang namin ang mga late, after ng script reading saka kami naniningil para sa mga demerit, nag start na rin kami sa pag-aanounce ng mga bili bago kami nag start ng rehearsal. Kahit maraming late maayos naman ang naging practice namin kaya on time na rin kami naka uwi, di-diretso na ako kila Iris.

"Shannon, wait," I heard one of our members call me. His name is Patrick, isa siya sa male lead. I stopped walking and waited for him to finally catch up on me, then we both continued walking. Na gulat ako nung may nilavas siya sa bulsa niya but I immediately recognized it, it was my scrunchie. "Oh, where did you find it?" I asked him after kung kunin, it was my spare scrunchie in my bag, at ni hindi ko napansin na naiwala ko iyon.

"At you chair, baka na hulog nung may kinuha ka sa bago mo, you were a bit skittish for no reason." Natawa ako sa sinabi niya, "Ganun ba? Thank you, I love my scrunchie so much buti na kita mo to."

"You're welcome," he sweetly smiled at me. Sabay na kaming nag lakad ni Patrick papuntang parking nandun na daw ang sundo niya ganun din ako. We were talking when we heard someone call me, it was Luke. Tinitigan niya akong maigi bago niya tinitigan ang kasama ko, I check myself. I was wearing a black corduroy skort, and an off shoulder pin top. Naka high ponytail rin ang buhok ko gamit ang isa sa mga scrunchie ko, wala naman mali sa suot ko. I look at Luke, kakaalis lang ng kasama niya, it was Polla. Nag iwas na ao ng tinggin nang mapansin kon naka tinggin pa rin si Luke kay Patrick hanggan sa makalapit siya samin.

"Are you going to Iris's pad?" Marahan akong tumango, he nod at m too. "Good, sabay na tayo." Lumapit siya sakin at inakbayan ako, hindi pa rin na aalis ang tingin niya kay Patrick at iginaya na niya ako papuntang parking. "Bye Patrick." I said almost shouting para marinig, I heard Luke groan a little.