HeartBurn - Hyunjin

Chapter Eighteen

As I tried my hardest to just sleep and forget everything, suddenly the door opened, I could tell it was felix.

"You should eat something y/n," he softly said.

"I'm not hungry," I whispered, felix slowly walked up to me, so now he was standing in front of me. He looked down at me sadly.

"What's the matter y/n? What did hyunjin say?" He sadly as he crouched down.

I just stared at him, with tears in my eyes.

"That he's sorry,"

I whispered as I tried to keep myself together,

"And that he'll wait for me for as long..." I sobbed...

Felix gently soothed my hair,

"And what do you want?" He softly questioned,

I dont know what I want anymore, I want to forgive him, but I also don't, I want to forget everything, but I don't want to forget everything, I really don't know what I want...

"I don't know..." I croaked out as I sniffled.

"I see... I really don't know what to say in this situation, y/n, let's just wait and see what the future holds for the two of you," felix softly assured as he gently pat my back.

Hopefully, in the future I am able to forgive and forget that I can't live hating him...

I just simply nodded.

"I'll leave this here, alright? Whenever you are hungry, you can eat, I have some work to do, so I have to get going for now, I'll see you later y/n," felix said before leaving.

It was silent for exactly 5 minutes, and in those five minutes, hyunjin had been calming his nerves down before trying to enter the room.

And so he did. With the last bit of confidence left, he entered.

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I already know who had come in, hyunjin...

Yet I stayed quiet, I really wasn't in the mood to talk to him.

"Hey... I- I'll just stay here for the while felix is out, and once he's back I promise I'll leave," hyunjin reassured, yet I paid him no mind, as he took a seat beside me.

My back was facing him, so it wouldn't be weird.

"I, I don't really know where to start, other than apologizing to you..." he began..

"I had initially came to your house for revenge, y/n, but in-between, I hadn't even realized when I fell for you, I was, I loved you so much y/n... I wish I had taken action into my own hands and not done what was done that day..."

"After I thought I killed you, y/n, I, I was done... I wanted to die, I never felt that way for anyone, but you... you made me want to change, to quit, so I could be with you forever..."

"All I can really do is just apologize over and over.. I know my actions can't be undone.. but I do hope that one day you'll be able to forgive me..."

He whispered. He thought I had been asleep, even though I was awake, listening to everything...