~God Of Lust~

Chapter 6

CECILY POV

"I don't like you Cecily, not in the least. I could never like you."
Those words cut through my heart like a knife. They were a knife. Cutting and shredding my heart into millions of tiny pieces. I always knew Landon didn't like me romantically or even ,at times, I had doubts of him even liking me platonically, but I never thought that I'd actually hear him say that....confirming my thoughts. I think I should move on as he and many others always tell me. Landon's right, I'm just humiliating myself by being a fool who's in love with him... People must be pitying me for my stupid crush on him. Ava and Creighton always tried to discourage my crush on Landon but I never liked that, they don't get to tell me who to like and who not to. But I guess they were right all along. It's time I moved on from Landon. Even if it breaks my heart along the process. I sit wondering why my life I'd like this when I get a message from Annika.
Annika: Hey Cec! I needed your help with something :)
Cecily: Hey Anni. If I can help then sure.
Annika: You're the best! Do you have any black clothing I could borrow? Any top, shorts,skirt or a dress I guess? I know you hate dresses:)
Cecily: I have a top. I'll give it to you.
Annika: Thank you so so much Cecy<3
I don't hate dresses. I love them but not since that one night...
"I don't want to go to this party Jonah" I say to Jonah, my boyfriend. A look of annoyance sits on his face at my words. I really don't enjoy going to parties but he loves them, so I never said anything ever before but today I really don't wish to go, so I told him but I don't think he's going to sit this party out. "Oh come on Cecily, it'll be fun, I promise. It's a really important party for me, all the guys will be there with their girls and if I show up alone, without you, how's that gonna look for me?" So he won't skip this party even if I don't go. What can I even do? He needs me there.
"But-" "You can wear that black dress I bought you, it hugs your curves quite sexily you know" He says, smirkingly, to persuade me. " Okay, I'll go. I'll get ready then." He looks relieved hearing those words. "Good."
Why is he so persistent on going to this party? I cannot even ask him...The last time I did, it did not go well. I got changed into the dress and head down to where Jonah was waiting for me, I was about to speak his name when I heard him on a call "Yeah She's coming...she's getting ready...yes...we'll be there soon" I didn't understand what was going on and decided to ignore it. "I'm ready Jonah" my voice coming out softly. He turns around and takes a look at me and smirks as he makes his was towards. "You look so hot Ces" He says as he brings his hands to my waist and turns me around, my back hitting his chest,his hands going lower and lower, making me feel extremely uncomfortable. "Stop...Jonah I don't wanna do this..." not being able to think of any other excuse I say "My parents could walk in on us" He stops with an irritated sigh leaving his lips. I've not ever felt the need to take things further with Jonah...yet...but he wishes to take them further, but I just don't fee comfortable enough yet. "Let's go" He says tightly and we leave for the party. I still don't have a good feeling about this party.
I snap out of my daze and go over to my closet to take out the black top for Annika. Hearing the door to the flat open and shut I realise Annika must be here to get the top. I look through my closet for around a minute when I finally find it, when another clothing falls down on the floor. As I bend down to pick it up I hear the door to my room open and before I could turn around to see Annika I hear the words in an all too familiar voice - the one that humiliated me.
"Quite a view from up here Ces. Does everybody get welcomed like this into your room?" My body freezes on hearing his voice. What? Why is he here now?
I stand straight quickly and turn towards him, "What are you doing here Landon?" He doesn't say anything for a minute and deciding that I've got no time for him I go back to keeping the shirt I took out for Annika on my bed. "I was looking for Glyn, any idea where she might be?" Oh. I thought that maybe he was here to apologize but knowing Landon that's highly unlikely to happen. "She's with Ava right now...they'll be back in an hour or so, you can talk to her then." I say as If I feel nothing, when I'm feeling way too much. "Okay...you left a dress down on your floor by the way...ain't I such a nice person to help you out with your chores?" He says as he picks up the black clothing that fell down- wait, what? A dress? I haven't worn any dress since...since that night. I quickly turn towards him and snatch the dress from his hands and inspect it. It's the same dress as that night...The same one...but-but how? I threw the one I had  away- burned it in fact. So how is it that this dress is here. My hands begin to shake as my breathing quickens. The dress falls from my hands as my hands come to my mouth- covering it, in utter shock. Tears begin to roll down my face at the memory of that night. I need to leave. I need to go somewhere. Anywhere. I cannot breathe. My feet move on their own accord, my mind not knowing where I'm going. I get out of my flat and continue walking and walking and walking till I reach the lake. I feel as if someone's calling me but I can't seem to understand what's going on in my surrounding. I continue walking when someone grabs me harshly, turning me around. My greens clash with dark blues. Landon. When did he get here? Why is he here? I look at his face and see the emotions on him, I've never seen him giving away his emotions. He looks panicked and angry and confused? But why? "What is wrong with you Cecily? Are you crazy?" He screams at me. Huh? What did I do? "What? What are you talking about Landon?" He looks at me in pure shock "Look around you! Look where we are!" I do. I look around me and realise were in the lake, all wet from the water around us. But when did I get here? "What the- I didn't come here. I- I- I didn't Landon. I didn't. I didn't. I swear" tears start flowing down my face again. Why do I cry so much? I'm weak. No wonder no one talks to me and when they do they just do it for their own benefit. "Cecily look at me" He says softly and I look at him. His hands cupping my cheeks, "I believe you. I do. Why don't we just go back and clean up okay?" He is being sweet? That's a first. Then I remember what he said the other day. I slap his hands away "Get away from me." My voice low. He looks taken aback. "I don't need your help" I take one last look at him and leave.

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Author's note
Hey everyone! I know I've updated after a month but I've got my exams from tomorrow so I was busy with the preparation for them. My exams will be over on 7th. I'll try updating the story after 10th September. I will try. Sorry for the inconvenience.
Happy Reading <3