a screen apart ~ chanlix {texting fanfic}

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(Felix' POV)

It has been a couple of days since the café incident. None of 3Racha has texted me. It's not like im expecting them to, I just hoped that Minho's words made Chan stop ignoring me.

I texted him a few times, asking him if we're still friends, if he's alright, I told him to not feel too pressured by Minho's words and that I'll be fine with either choice he makes.
But still nothing..

I'd understand if they're busy, they're famous artists, of course they're gonna be busy. But they're not. They're constantly posting about their hangouts and they even went on a little vacation! There's no comeback near and no performances either. He's just straight up ignoring me!

I told Minho all about it and he told me he cut off contact with Jisung for the time being too, I feel quite bad about that. It's not Jisung's fault that Chan's a dickhead right now. And I know Minho misses him.. I wish I never texted my stupid number neighbour..

The past days I pretty much isolated myself, for someone I barely know Chan has crazily bad effects on me.. I guess I just miss him? Even though he was very dry and non-interested all the time, he still talked to me and there's no way he didn't like me one bit because he told his friends about me! Plus Jisung told Minho some interesting details about when Chan texted me..

Ugh it's all stupid and he should just man up and text me..
Though I don't want him to text me because he has to, I want him to text me because he wants to.

It's just stupid, he's stupid, 3Racha's stupid and his number is stupid.

No I don't mean that..

The situation is just stupid. Not him or 3Racha.

The situation is very stupid. I've ended up in a stupid habit cycle in a stupid situation caused by stupid.. things.

All day I've just been sleeping, scrolling through Instagram and sometimes eating. Hoping a certain someone texts me, getting all excited when I get a notification just to be disappointed right after when I see it's from Minho.

It's an endless cycle that only I or Chan can break and neither is really feeling like taking action to do so..

(Chan's POV)

After the encounter with Minho we all decided to take a break from work and people. I needed to really think everything through and the other two, well they just deserve a break.

Felix' has been texting me non-stop whilst Minho has been ignoring Jisung. I don't know why Minho is including Jisung in this mess.. He didn't do anything wrong and it's making him pretty upset to not talk to his.. whatever Minho is to Jisung.

I, however, don't feel too affected by not talking to Felix. It's just like before; work, eat, (sometimes) sleep & repeat.

When I talked to Felix more regularly it was different, I wake up and checked my messages, went to the studio and checked my messages, I went home and checked my messages. I always checked if Felix perhaps had texted me and when he did I'd reply and we'd talk for a while.

I suppose that was nice too.. I actually felt a lot calmer then. It was like talking to him relieved some stress, made me forget all of my problems and I could just talk.

I wouldn't say I miss him though. I just.. am back to being stressed and sleep-deprived 24/7.

Agh who am I kidding, I'm a mess now and so is everything else.
It's so boring with texting Felix every day..
I miss his emoticons, his 'Channie', I miss how he talks and how well he bonded with Sung and Bin.

But how can I fix it? I completely messed up and Minho's pissed at me, Jisung's pissed at me because I made Minho ignore him, Felix is most likely pissed at me too and nothing is working out!!

And it's not like I can open up to Felix about how I really feel about him because of stupid irrational fears! Times like these some advice would be handy but who would I even go to?
3Racha has no love life and all my other-
Love life? Woah woah no. I do not like Felix like that.
I don't. I really don't.
He's just a friend, if I can even still call him that, but he's definitely nothing more!

That was just.. stupid, yeah very stupid. There's no way I can like him, I'm an artist, I can't date.
..Though our dating ban is over already..
NOT THAT I'M GLAD ABOUT THAT!! I totally didn't feel a smile grow on my face when I realised..
No!
I don't care my dating ban.. I do not need it to be over nor will I be using the opportunity of no dating ban.
Cause I do not like Lee Felix in any romantic way. At all. I don't.

But what if I do..?

No!

He's just, a person I know and have messed up with and now I have to fix my friendship with him so half of my friend circle isn't pissed off at me.

Yes that's what it is.. A friend problem.