sensei suki ~

8: suki wa yada

*opens door of hokage's office *

Ryuushi: hokage.

Hokage: ryuushi...

Ryuushi: can I talk to you about something?

Hokage: sure.

Ryuushi: honestly... What do you think of me?

Hokage: I've read reports, heard from kakashi. You haven't been showing your skills until kakashi showed up and this time's mission. You are no doubt a jounin level ninja but...

Ryuushi: but I am a twelve year old.

Hokage: you are fit to be a leader and care about your comrades even though not in an obvious way.But its obvious you don't like to be grouped. You don't communicate. Would you like to tell me the reason?

Ryuushi: does it matter?

Hokage: if you can change, it will makes things easier for me of course. That's why this time's I allowed you to go in solo. I hoped you would find teammates to your liking, maybe I can make a group for you.

Ryuushi: wouldn't that make things difficult for that group if you had to split them up because of me? Plus... Putting me in a group with Naruto, sasuke and sakura... Did you want to see how I fared in a normal group?

Hokage: you are smart. I did. And it showed me a lot. I have no doubt in you passing phase one and two of the chunnin exams, but I also wanted to see how you would perform in a retrieval mission.

Ryuushi: how about I make you a deal? Make me an anbu, I'll do anything I have to as my role requests me of. I'll take all your orders. I can't communicate like you said, but I'll be sure to make sure my teammates are fine. Is that good enough?

Hokage: you seem desperate.

Ryuushi: you're testing me because prehaps you want to know which area I'm not good at. I'll tell you now, I'm good at everything just not making a connection. I don't plan to either.

Hokage: you're really troublesome. I understand. I've planned this long ago. You'll be an anbu by tomorrow. Come here and meet your teammates tomorrow.

Ryuushi: hai.
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Kakashi: ryuushi. Open up. Ryuushi. Ryuu ryuu!!

Kakashi pov :

Its not working. She's really not responding. I try opening the door... It opens. No traps... That's not like her. There she was...

She was sitting against the wall... With... Is that yori? Than this must be her papa. Tsuzuki. Ryuushi was sitting in the middle of them fast asleep. Their bodies aren't rotting. Just... Cold. They're dead. Than these seals... That wrap their bodies must be preserving them. " mama... Papa... " she snuggles in between them.

My tears fall down uncontrollably. She really loves them. Her eyes open... " Kakashi... " she alerts immediately. She opens her scroll on the floor and puts the bodies back. " you didn't see anything. "

Kakashi: ryuushi... You asked to become an anbu I heard.

Ryuushi: our connection is over.

Kakashi: I'll still be your sensei even though you're an anbu now.

Ryuushi: why won't you let go of me?

Kakashi:.... Because you need someone to care about you.

Ryuushi: I don't need it!!! If you're going to pity me!! I don't need it!! If you think I'm a child who only wants people to care, I don't need it!!!

Kakashi: than what do you need?

Ryuushi: nothing!!! Just a place to belong!!! A place... Where people will acknowledge that I don't need pity!!! You won't ever understand.

Her tears flowed down her eyes. That pained me and broke my heart. I dried her tears for her. She grabbed my wrist as more tears flow... " don't touch me!!! I'm not a doll!! Watashi... Sensei ni wa... Suki wa yada!!! ( I don't want to like sensei)" I cupped her head and hugged her " its ok. " She pushed me away... " its not!!! Daisuki da... Sensei... You'll come to reject me... Papa... Papa... Is the best... " she ran out.

Daisuki...? Stupid me. Again... Again I looked at her like a child. I've hurt her of how I looked at her... Now again.
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Iruka: what....?!!!

Kakashi: yea...

Iruka: that's a little troublesome.

Hokage: Kakashi.

Kakashi: hokage.

Hokage: troubled by ryuushi?

Kakashi: yea...

*explains...*

Hokage: I know at first you did it for me. And also with some pity because she was kind of similar to you. But you keep forgetting she's like am adult.

Kakashi: yea... I keep hurting her.

Hokage: you got to be clear about this Kakashi. Sensei or... something else...That's your problem really.

Kakashi: hokage... Arigato.
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Kakashi: hey ryuushi.

Ryuushi just looks at him.

Kakashi: I heard you've become an anbu leader. Congratulations.

She walked away but he held her arm " that day... If I were to be your sensei, will you definitely cut me off? "

Ryuushi: hai. I've got a mission. Let go.

He sighs and let go.
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Kakashi: say kurenai have you fall in love before?

Kurenai: I've had a crush. Does that count?

Kakashi: how does it feel?

Kurenai: do you have one? Kakashi.

Kakashi: I don't know.

Kurenai: well I guess you care about him a lot. He is constantly on your mind. If he is upset you are too.

Kakashi: that sounds a lot like how I treat my students. Hahaha...

Kurenai: I guess neh. Hahaha... But its kinda different. You really want him to be by your side.

Kakashi: I see...

Kurenai: so? Do you have a crush?

Kakashi: hahaha... Who knows.