Some nights I think about us and what we used to be.
But we were just a play of my fantasies.
I created a picture-perfect world of our love.And now I've scarred my heart.
The cracks forming your name and my heart bleeds.
It cries. It hurts. It begs.I beg myself to stop.
But to stop means to not feel.
And to not feel means to not be me.I can't allow myself to be cold.
Because cold isn't who I am and isn't the one I want to be.
But to be cold is to protect my heart.And to protect my heart is to numb my soul.
But I think I like my soul; I think I want to feel.
Maybe hurting is a way of coping.And for every night, the nights I think about us.
I relive the moment you said you loved which you didn't mean.
And my heart bleeds when your name is scarred onto itself.I beg myself to fall asleep.
But it seems like sleep is running far away from me.
I cry. I hurt. I beg.And I hear the words of my mother heeding me,
"Love isn't a bed of roses. Love either breaks you or heals you."
And I look at myself and who I've become.Love either breaks you or heals you.
His love broke me. His love healed me.
But his love wasn't real but just a part of my fantasies.
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Eunoia • Book Three
Poesía𝐏𝐎𝐄𝐓𝐈𝐂 𝐏𝐈𝐄𝐂𝐄𝐒 𝐖𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐍 𝐁𝐘 𝐌𝐎𝐈. • • • • • ❝ 𝑯𝒆 𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒘𝒆𝒅 𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒃𝒆𝒂𝒖𝒕𝒚 𝒐𝒇 𝒎𝒚 𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒓𝒎𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒎𝒂𝒅𝒆 𝒎𝒆 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒖𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒍𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔 ❞ • • • • • Book Three of Eunoia (Bea...