|fantasia h. ♡|
"thank you, ill call you if i need more."
"always."
i went home and took a shower. when i got out, i threw on some nike shorts and a white tanktop and slid on some house slippers. my house was fresh and clean, so i didn't have to lift a finger. i started on some food for taraji and the kids. i couldn't eat two weeks ago and still can't eat now.
an hour later, they were walking through the door. i had their plates and silverware on the table already.
"MOMMY!" pai pai ran into my arms. i almost cried.
"hey baby. mommy missed you guys so much." i kissed her face all over.
"i missed you too. can i eat? mama has been starving us!"
"i- what? no i have not. just because i said you couldn't have fast food doesn't mean you don't eat."
i laughed. "ill fix your plate. go to the table."
"okay!" she skipped away, and i turned to halo.
"no hug, kiss, nothing?"
"mama, can i go to the table now?"
"you could atleast say hi."
"she could atleast make time for us."
"im sorry, halo. i promise i will never miss another game or performance."
"yeah, whatever."
he walked away and joined paisley.
"how does that make you feel?"
"horrible. i knew he said he hated me, but i didn't know how it felt to actually be hated by your own child."
"yeah, where were you earlier?"
"out. come, let me fix yall food."
she gently grabbed my wrist to stop me from walking away.
"tasia, whats going on with you?"
"nothing im f-"
"no, you're not. i see right through you."
"well, i just lost a baby. im not exactly my normal self at the moment."
"and how have you been coping?"
"um..praying, i guess. my wrist, let it go, please."
i fixed their food and sat in the living until they finished. taraji joined me a few minutes later. i honestly didnt feel like talking.
"wassup?"
"nothing, are you gonna put your ring back on, or do you still want a divorce? i mean, if we aren't happy, then maybe we should take that step. im-"
"are you high?"
"hm? what? of course not."
"look me in my eyes."
"babe, im not high. don't be ridi....culous. i did have tequila, though."
"how much fucking tequila? you know what- get yall stuff and let's go."
"ba- dont take my kids, please."
they got their things and went outside.
"first time seeing them in over two weeks and this is how you do?"
"im sorry."
"we knew that. goodbye fantasia."
"raji?"
