My Diary

back at school😃(i already wanna die)

waking up and 5:45 in the morning was NOT my plan but my braces (that I got tightened the day yesterday) were hurting like HELL.
I banged my teeth and BOOMM NO SLEEP FOR ME.

I'm still rather bitter about it but it is what it is 🤷‍♀️.

Basically, like any normal person I was freaking out the whole time I was getting ready (but actually it's crazy that the first day was a Friday. Seriously, we could have at least waited till monday😒)

I went into school and over rhe week I had made these badges and within MINTUES I'd lost one of them 😭.
So I headed in and I couldn't find any of my friends so I had to wonder around school alone😔😔.
Tbh I'm used to it because I had like NO friends in yr 7 and 8 (I blame the autism) but still, I was kinda sad tbh.

(I probably shouldn't be writing about this on the Internet cuz if ANYONE ik finds this I'm cooked) basically  as I was walking around school I had the misfortune of running into a particular classmate (this low-key is fring tbh but because I'll probably mention her a bit ill call her Sam) and even though we didn't talk she gave me such a weird look. Like WHAT DID I DO TO YOU???

tbh I know why she doesn't like me, I'm shit at pe and she's one of those people who take pe WAYYYY to seriously.
So in yr 8 when she tried to give me a Highfive I left her hanging. I lowkey feel bad but SHE was the one always yelling at ME. 🤨

TBH it's probably more the fact that I'm friends with someone her whole friend group hates (ill call her Stella).

anyways I basically spent the next 3 periods going over the rules. Like seriously  I've been there for 3 years. I KNOW THEM!!!!

Also, I have a new form teacher for a couple days a week and I go to a Catholic school but ofc not everyone is including Stella. So my new form tutor pulled up the school prayer and basically said that even if you weren't Christian you still had to pray because it was a 'Class activity'. My mum says I'm overreacting when I said she was pushing her faith on others. Idk because it doesn't really affect me but I don't feel like it's fair to force people to pray when they don't believe in it. Pls correct me if I'm in the wrong though.

Anyways, it was rlly warn today which I don't mind tbh.

plus, I have barely any classes with my friends

Either ways, after lunch I had german  and basically I got moved classes because I was supposed to be with a teacher I had problems with in yr 8.
But I asked to switch back because some of my friends were in the class I was originally supposed to be In. Now I just jave to wait to see if I can.

Then I had maths and tbh that wasn't so bad. We got new books aswell as a folder though I somehow ended up with a folder that was being used (I never ended up saying anything because I was too scared to). Either way I really need to go over maths because I somehow forgot how to calculate the mean of something 😭.

Anyways I had to head home on the bus like always and my god it was so crowded on there even though the bus company thing has added more buses on that route to stop it being so crowded.
I'm also kinda confused because Sam and her friends get off at a certain stop and I saw her get on but when her friends got off, she didn't? And then she didn't get off at any other stops.. idk maybe she evaporated 🤷‍♀️

That's it rlly
Idk if this is too personal to put on here tho 😭
But I'm rather blind to what is too much so if you are reading this and it is too much pls tell me.