Firm constellation

Starting with the ending

                 

                There's no such a thing like living a teens life. Everything seems so complicated when it actually isn't. Sometimes I think that our minds are silly by nature and when we finally get to the adulthood, another brain is being given to us by a supernatural being. My life isn't that easy to live. I'm a 16 years old gal who can't stop messing up everything she does. Living in a small town like Rosewoods makes me feel so much more limited. All the people here seem stupid or better, they actually are stupid. The lack of opportunities influence me to boredom. And you know what comes from boredom. Mistakes, And this is all I do. Every step I make is assisted by a huge fall. Heading to the conclusion, I can say that God created me with a lot of spices like stupidity, credulity, blindness and so on.  If you really want to know, this story is pretty much based on my life but I chose to make it a little bit more movie like. Who doesn't like movies, right? Drama is my strongest skill so let's use it! Ok, well, you may want to know what is this all about and because I am such a drama queen I'll just let you wonder. But if you're smart enough, you'll figure it out pretty quickly; and if you're not, I'm sorry for you but go away, you'll not understand this. 

                                                                              

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          I am a 9th grader. First high school day, so many expectations and hopes for starting a totally different life. Dreaming about a nice boyfriend, new friends and easy A's. But this doesn't work like this. My class is pretty big, full of people who I can't say I'm really keen on. But there is someone whose presence I felt since I first stepped in the class. His long blond hair, his blue eyes, his parfume, his voice. I knew them all without even realizing it. Being such an inocent child, I believed in true love. Who wouldn't after all the books I've read, after all the movies I watched and after all the happiness I saw around me. I have a tendency to be pretty annoying when it comes to having an obsession. Because this is what it was. I heard my name so I turned my head to see one of my middle school's friend. Rita isn't my favorite person right now. I chose to let my past behind, remember? Although I hated it, I smiled and said: ''Hi, Rita. How are you?'' ''I'm good enough, thank you. How was your summer?'' ''Perfect! I couldn't think of a better one! What about yours?'' ''It was okey. Different, in one word.'' ''Yeah, I bet. I saw the little group you were spending your time? Was them worth to put me down in such a way?'' Rita's smile faded as she heard my words. She knew she is guilty and so I did. I turned my back and left her alone. I really wasn't in the mood.

As you probably noticed. I suddenly changed the tenses. Well, it's pretty hard for me to live again what I lived 2 years ago. (now I'm an 11th grader). Anyway, back to the story.

As I turned my back to Rita, there he was, in his biggest splendor, watching me. I freezed. I still can feel the butterflies. But it lasted just a second and than, he lost his interest and turned to talk with another guy. I felt disappointed because I wasn't an interesting person for him. My expectations were set high so nothing ever comes up right.  What intrigued me was that Rita seemed to get along well with THE guy and all I was doing was to stare like a complete pshyco. Not nice at all. Having an adrenaline impulse, I walked to THE guy and said, almost screaming my desperation:''HI, I'm Cassie!''