Firm constellation

Changing pains

He looked at me while I was akwardly staying there, hoping for something to save me from the situation. I was dangerously balancing between fainting because of the emotions and running because of the shame. So, what I did was just stay there, waiting for him to sketch a movement. Finally, he woke up from his contemplation and shaked my hand saying:''Hi, I'm Lucifer.'' His name made me giggle. He looked deep in my eyes and said:''What's so funny? Tell me so I can laugh too.''  ''Are you serious? Your real name is Lucifer? Like the dark lord of Hell?'' ''Yes, it is. But it's not like his; maybe I am the Hell's dark lord.'' The last words were said whispered in my ear, so just I could hear them. Than he just left. It wasn't like he told me that he was Satan in person, no, it was totally normal. Still hoping he was joking, I chose my seat. My deskmate was a girl, whose name was Christine. She seemed a nice girl but still silly. Just like I was so we had a match. We became friends pretty quickly so I confessed her my passion for THE guy. I still prefered to call him like that, not being prepared to admit the presence of the complete devil in my new born life. As the day went on, I couldn't stop staring at THE guy sitting in front of me. I'm sure he felt my insisting gaze but he didn't really care. Actually, not at all. But once, he turned to me, asking for a pen. I gave him one quickly, almost losing myself. He thanked me and went back to want he was doing. The school day ended and I was disappointed of what I've got. I mean, nothing, I've got nothing. While I was packing my stuff, a ripped paper fell from my math book. On it was written:''You've got the devil's eye.'' As the foolish girl I was, I got excited. Back than, was pretty hard for me to control my feeling's fluxes so i started jumping like a complete retard. I stopped just when Christine drew my attention to the other classmates who were staring at me. Freaky monday, huh? Once I got home, I started overthinking, dreaming about what the note could mean. It could be like, I cought his attention? He want me? He feels the same? I didn't know how much pain this little devil will cause in the future. But who would have known? Nobody. I investigated a little bit about him and I saw that he was the bad guy type, like, duh. I fixed in my head the ideal and started changing myself; replacing my shirts with black band T-shirts, choosing the skinny jeans to skirts, and prefering sneakers to heels. My best achievment was the heavy make up I was using. Looking back, I see that my eyes looked like two black holes. The first semester was full though. And youll find more about it soon, as the story line is getting more detailed. 

Do you know what happens to a human whose life changes way too quickly? Well, in a blink of an eye, I was the twisted being, trying to swim at the surface. My experiences weren't nice at all. And you, little patient creatures, you are going to find out about it, chapter by chapter, assisting at my own funeral. Just if you are patient enough, of course.