❀Remembering You❀

15. 𝐖𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐁𝐞 𝐌𝐢𝐧𝐞?

Jon's POV:

Today is one of the biggest days of my life. No, my album isn't coming out- yet! There's still about a week or two until its release. The thing that's happening later this evening is the biggest thing in question. Will it go well? Who knows? I'm getting sweaty and shaky just thinking of all the worst case scenarios.

It's actually kind of nerve-racking to think about the possibility of Molly not wanting me back. It will hurt, yes, but I'd rather her be happy regardless- even if it isn't with me. Her feelings about me are reciprocated, but still... There's so much doubt in my mind about this whole thing, not going to lie. I could confide in Claudia and tell her about the troubles, but I don't need her snitching and telling Molly what's to happen this evening. I mean, Claudia wouldn't sabotage me- not on purpose, at least.

I know it's nothing crazy, but I hung up some string lights all around the barn at the farm and a picnic planned overlooking the beautiful greenery at the farm. I'm hoping Molly will like it. She isn't picky or hard to please, but this is one of the most scariest days in my life... She's the love of my life! She has pulled me out of so many dark tunnels in my life and truthfully? I wouldn't be the man I am today if it wasn't for her. All the more reason as to why I want tonight to go exceptionally well.

Speaking of both Claudia and Molly, the two are out shopping and having one-on-one time with each other which is a good thing! I'm glad that Molly is getting out of the house; she still can't drive and even when I try to mention it, she kind of freaks out, so for now, me and Claud are going to be her chauffeurs- which isn't such a horrible thing. As long as Mo is healthy, I'll be her chauffeur anytime. Hell, we're already roommates, ha.

Since I was left on my own, I had began to put the finishing touches on tonight's picnic and plans. While doing so, my nerves began to feel ten times worse! More about the presentation of everything- us hanging out and everything makes me nervous too, but I want this to be exceptionally perfect! Molly genuinely deserves the best and I'm a really big critic when it comes to my own doings. It's one of my negative traits, come to think of it.

The only thing that I decided to make food-wise for the picnic was ham sandwiches- and obviously some other snacks to go with the sandwiches. I'm not the greatest cook in the world, so this is about as 'fancy' as it'll get as far as a 'home-cooked' meal goes. It's the thought that counts, no?

While packing up the basket with the food, plates, and napkins, my phone buzzed and it was my guitarist, Brad texting me. All he did was ask how I was feeling which kind of stumped me because I wasn't sure if he meant on a professional level since the album is coming out, or if he was asking on a personal level. Because trust me, I have two totally different answers for either one, haha.

I replied to the message with a vague, 'I'm alright' response and shut my phone off soon after. As much as I'd love to talk to him, I've got a bit more preparations to be done before Claudia drops Molly off after their girly shenanigans. That's the only thing I've mentioned to Claudia as far as this evening; I asked her if she'd be willing to drop Molly off at the farm so she and I could spend a peaceful, fun night together. Obviously, she obliged, so that made that job very easy.

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It took two hours, but I can confidently say that the farm looks beautiful! The string lights give it a different glow as opposed to natural sunlight. Yes, sunlight gives off good vitamins or whatever, but it doesn't hurt too much to be cutesy every once in a while. And tonight just so happens to be one of those 'once in a whiles'.

The time was ticking by faster and faster, thus making me sweat and feel even more nervous than before. The number one thing that's on my mind currently is all of the worst case scenarios and what ifs. At the end of the day, all I truly want is for Molly to be happy... Even if tonight doesn't go to plan like I'm praying it will, it's better to get all of these feelings off my chest. It may feel like a weight will be lifted from my chest. Hopefully, anyway.