Diary Of A Self Conscious Failure,With Attachment Issues,Dissapointed But Alive

Silencing the dins

Letting you go is a wonderful feeling

It expresses so many things,

But the pain and hurt is deepening,

Yet,I am grateful to learn new feelings.

The ones of suppression,guilt,shame and regret

I ones i swallowed and let grow in me..

To disappoint my lover is the last thing id wish for

So,I'll  smile, gazing into the eyes of those I adore,

Telling '"I don't care", so if I crumble, I crumble alone.

But i wish to share one real thing in our treasured spot ,

The words whispered to my soul in my loudest thoughts,

Wishing, these words could awaken your numbed heart;

"The sunset's fiery hues, a final refrain,

Echoes of beauty, now lost in the pain,

Our love's last ember, flickering out of sight,

Leaves my thoughts in turmoil, swirling through the night.

The what-ifs and why-nots, a bittersweet refrain,

Haunting memories, a love that could not remain,

The fiery hues, a fleeting glimpse of what's past,

A beautiful love story, forever lost at last.

All because a war that was not fought,

You sought peace, but in deceit, I was caught.

The promises, a web of hopes, we spun,

But proved to be the very thing we thought we'd never become.

For the peace you claimed, did you ever truly win?

Or did you sacrifice us, to silence the din?"

Though you once said, 'I feel things I don't speak of,'

Theres a facade you put on, when you act so tough.

Your cold gaze now leaves a scar, a wound that won't heal.

My tears, must be a mockery to you, bring only your disdain,

Yet, your words once kindled love, a flame that now fuels my pain.

The pain that's fueled is also comforted by what you had said

That love, now lost, is the death of me, a heart that's gone astray,

A casualty of the chill in your eyes, where love once used to stay.