(angst)Atsushi fics -sskk-

I'm here...

Sskk❤

TW: mentions of sh, ed and discriminatory words about a body

IM SO SORRY FOR NOT UPLOADING IN AGES!! I've just not been feeling like writing but since school has started again I'll probably post more (ik that it's normally the other way round but my brain just works weird<3)

This sory might be a bit radom and unorganised but oh well. Also I couldn't think of anything to call this chapter so....yeah.

Also kinda bad...sorry😖

"Shh....its okay...I'm here...I'm here...."

(A few hours earlier)

Atsushi sat at his desk, typing each key individually with his finger. He was tried, so tired. He didn't sleep last night. All he could think about was his past. That rotten man haunted him every day and night. 

His thoughts became overwhelming and he ended relapsing after being 3 weeks clean. 

He was so disappointed in himself.

As he typed away , his stomach growled loudly, telling him it was time to eat.

"Hey! Atsushi-kun~"

It was like he knew.

"Wanna go eat lunch? I'm starvingggg"

Dazai sprawled across the couch , holding his stomach to show his hunger.

"Sure...."

Atsushi replied, he sounded exhausted and fed up. He was exhausted and fed up.

"Yay! Hey Kunikida! Me and Atsushi are going to the cafe!"

"What!? No you-"

But before Kunikida could finish Dazai had already dragged him and Atsushi out of the office.

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"A cup of tea and an...apple pie! And some cheesecake please! What about you Atsushi?"

Atsushi slightly jumped when Dazai said his name , snapping him out of his stare.

"Can I have a slice of the strawberry cake and some ice-"

You greedy pig. 

"Um...just the cake actually please...

You don't deserve it. Fatty. You disgusting greedy little pig. 

"Oh...um i- uh...actually....just a um...cup of tea please...."

The waiter was a bit confused but nodded regardless , after all, the costumer is always right.

"Th-thank you...."

Atsushi spoke shyly as the waiter walked away , feeling embarrassed and defeated.

He was just finally starting to actually eat.

"What the hell was that , Atsushi? Why did you not get any food, I thought you were hungry?"

"Oh...nothing...I just-...I'm not that hungry right now" 

Atsushi flashed a small , fake smile at Dazai.

"If you say so"

Dazai said, skeptical, as he shrugged his shoulders

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"Here's your order! Hope you enjoy!"

"Thank you beautiful lady! Oh! Also may I ask you something?"