The Twin Diaries

Chapter 1 - Broken Bonds

January 1st, Byron Bay
Taylor's POV .
The sun kissed streets felt empty without Mum. Every wave, every seagulls cry, reminded me of her.
I glared at Alex, my twin sister, as we walked along the beach. She was smiling, laughing and skipping around like nothing had changed.
"How can you be so carefree" I snapped
Alex's smile faltered "I'm just trying to move forward Taylor"
"Move forward!?" My voice rose. " Mum's gone. We'll never see her again. "
"I know Taylor" She said as her eyes welled up.
"But we have each other" Alex said wiping away her fallen tears with her sleeve.
I scoffed "You think that's enough?" I said folding my arms.
" Listen, Taylor ,I know Mum's passing hurt you, It hurt me too and I can't even imagine how Dad feels. I want you to know that I understand you but you need to calm down and-  "Don't you dare tell me to calm down!" I cut in
" You don't understand me, none of you do!" I screamed at her. I stormed towards the beach house making sure to to slam the doors shut. I hated explaining to Alex that she didn't understand me but she never got the memo. We argued like this all the time but would you blame me, she acts like she's in a fairytale, like everything's perfect while it's not. Our mother died how can she not see that. Was I being selfish? Yes, I was. I literally ran upstairs to my room,walking straight towards the balcony where a breathtaking view of the sun setting was displayed.
Mum would have loved it, we used to watch it every time it happened. She was always so cheerful and happy that rubbed of on everyone she knew and met. But now that she's gone its like every ounce of happiness has been sucked out of me. My eyes glistened with tears, my throat dry. "I miss you Mum" I mumbled
The January air felt nice, I closed my eyes breathing in and out.

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January 29th.
Alex's POV.

First day back at school after summer break. Senior year is finally here. Mum would have been proud to see us make it this far.
Taylor's still struggling with her anger issues, and Dad's at his wit's end but he's trying hard to fill the void meanwhile I feel stuck in the middle.
This very morning Taylor exploded over something trivial. I tried to calm her down but she just stormed out.
I'm not surprised she's been like that ever since Mum died. Today's gonna be a long day.

Taylor's POV.
Everyone expects me to be okay, but they don't get it. Mum's been gone a year, and the pain is still fresh.
Alex thinks I'm angry all the time, but she doesn't understand. She doesn't feel the emptiness.
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The twins got ready for school, unlocking new chapters in their lives. The grief of their mother's death still in their hearts, they had to face the music and embark on the new
journey and move on.
As they walk into school, Taylor spotted a group of friends laughing.
"Hey, guys!" Alex calls out, but Taylor just rolls her eyes
"Fake smiles, fake friends here we are again" Taylor mutters
Alex tries to reassure her but Taylor shakes her off.
"Leave me alone, Alex.

*Flashback.
A year ago, January 30th Mum's funeral when the twin's world shattered.
Taylor's POV.
We stood side by side, Alex and I holding hands as we said our goodbyes' to Mom. The funeral was a blur but the pain was razor sharp. All I remember was the overwhelming scent of flowers, the soft murmurs of condolences, and the crushing weight of grief.
Dad's eyes were red-rimmed, his face gaunt. Alex's hand trembled in mine.
As we walked from the gravesite, Alex whispered:
" It's just us now Tay". I nodded unable to speak.

The days that followed were a haze of tears, silence and empty spaces.

*Flashback within a flashback.
Mom's last day:
"Girls, I love you both so much" she whispered her voice barely audible.
"We love you too, Mom" Alex and I chimed in unison
"Be there for each other always"
I felt a lump in my throat.
"Promise, Mom" Alex said.
I nodded, trying to hold back my tears.
Mom's frail hand squeezed mine.
" I'm proud of you both. You're strong, resilient"
Her emerald eyes locked onto mine, and I saw a glimmer of sadness.
" I'm sorry Tay. Sorry for leaving you."
Tears streamed down my face.
" Don't say that Mom. You're not going anywhere."
She chuckled. " Don't be silly dear, I'm always with you. Whenever you need me"
But she did leave.

End of Flashback.
Back to the present:
Why does it still hurt so much? Why can't I move on?
Alex says I need to let go, but how can I when the only person who truly understood me is gone.

I feel lost, alone and angry.

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Author:
That was the first chapter, I hope you liked it.
This story is now re-publish because it was rubbish, but i think I got the hang of things even though its not perfect. But hey, I did something right?
Please don't be a silent reader feel free to vote and comment what you think!

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