Big Time Stalker

Part 6

I looked at him leaning in to kiss him, but he stopped me when he quickly got up off the bed, "Let's go sit on the couch and talk."

He looked so serious, and I was almost scared of what he was going to say but like a puppy I would follow him anywhere right now, so we moved to the couch.

I sat next to him, and he turned, taking my hand and said, "I want you to know how much I care about you."

I looked deep into his eyes, "I know..."

He stopped me, "Just listen before I chicken out again please." I gave him a nod and he continued, "The conversation between Logan and I was about you." I gave him a questioning look and he looked down at the floor, "When all of this started you had already seen James and Carlos and I needed someone that wouldn't make you uncomfortable to be here with you, so I asked Logan. At the time it was no big deal but now..." his voice trailed off.

I lifted his head to face me, "Please go on."

He let out a heavy sigh, "When you told him your story he started to see you in a very different way. The way that I see you." he quietly said.

I was puzzled, "And what exactly does that mean?" I asked.

He gently stroked my cheek, "He thinks he is falling for you."

Shock washed over my body, "Does that mean..." but before I could finish Kendall said, "He is worried that I'm going to hurt you."

"Are you going to?"

He leaned over very close to me, "I would never do anything to intentionally hurt you."

I had to inquire, "What about unintentionally?"

He backed away from me getting off the couch with his back to me and said, "That is what he is worried about. He thinks I'm still hung up on my ex. The one I told you that you reminded me of. He thinks I'm trying to use you to replace her."

I got up and went to him, "Are you?"

He looked into my eyes, "I have never had this feeling with her." he said pulling me in to kiss me.

He slowly parted my lips, and his tongue stroked mine gently. He slowly backed away and started to kiss my face reaching my ear he whispered, "I can't stop touching you. I can't get enough of you. I'm falling hopelessly for you."

The sound of his words in my ear made me melt. I whispered back to him, "I just want to stay here forever." and he picked me up carrying me back to the bed.

He gently laid me down and started to kiss me. I rubbed my hands over his muscular arms and then traced every inch of his chest again until I reached his waist. I reached for his jeans to unbutton them, and he stopped me, "I can't do this." and he quickly got up.

The shared moments of passion and love I just felt were replaced with anger, "What the hell is your problem? You tell me your falling in love with me and then tell me you can't make love to me. I just don't understand! You can't keep doing this to me. I'm not a light switch you can just turn on and off at your leisure!" I shouted with the tears welling up in my eyes.

He rushed back to my side, pulling me to him and I pushed him away, "Don't try to fix this. Just leave me alone."

He backed away, hanging his head, "I'm so sorry. I don't know what I'm doing here." and he grabbed his shirt, heading for the door.

I got between him and the door, "You're not going anywhere until I get an explanation! Do you always play these kinds of games with people you love?" I demanded to know.

He slammed his hands on either side of my head against the door, "I just want you so bad, but I just can't. Not here. Not now!" He said forcefully.

I shook my head, "What the hell does that even mean? Why not here and now?" I asked.