Mrs. Butterfly - finding myself

you'll never be alone

some of you might've already heard of this song.

if not, or even if, please play it whilst reading the lyrics, so the emotions get conveyed correctly.

never be alone - shawn mendes

I promise that one day I'll be around
I'll keep you safe, I'll keep you sound
Right now it's pretty crazy
And I don't know how to stop or slow it down

Hey
I know there are some things we need to talk about
And I can't stay
Just let me hold you for a little longer now

Take a piece of my heart
And make it all your own
So when we are apart
You'll never be alone
You'll never be alone


You'll never be alone


When you miss me, close your eyes
I may be far, but never gone.

when you fall asleep tonight, just remember that we lay under the same stars.

And hey
I know there are some things we need to talk about
And I can't stay
Just let me hold you for a little longer now

And take a piece of my heart
And make it all your own
So when we are apart
You'll never be alone
You'll never be alone

You'll never be alone
You'll never be alone
You'll never be alone
You'll never be alone

And take a piece of my heart
And make it all your own
So when we are apart
You'll never be alone
You will never be alone.

this song literally means so much to me - and there are many reasons for it. It is not only because I've been a Shawn Mendes fan for at least 6 years now, but it is also because it's lyrics hold so much meaning.

Let us discuss the depth of those inconspicous words.

The first message that came to my mind when I started to get back to my faith was that the one possibly singing those words to you and me was our one and only God. Delving deeper, I'd go so far and mention Jesus Christ as the one who talks to us through those words (if we ignore that those are Shawn's lyrics. and not God's.)

Jesus did not only give us His literal heart by dying for us, but He also gave us His sweat, His tears and most importantly His love.

Because of His existence, of Gods existence, we can be sure to never be alone- because we are loved and cared for, therefore never being forgotten even if the world seems to turn against ourselves.

The Bible provides many verses about that.

One of my dearest ones is Matthew 28:20:

"And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age."

Just to name you one out of many.

The whole song can be summarized within one sentence: You'll never be alone. That is the message Shawn trys to convey whilst pouring his heart out in the song.

But we can all tell a tale of this not always being accurate. How many of us have felt lonely at some point in our lifes, and how many people are still lonely in the moment you are reading this passage?
Maybe even you, dear reader, are lonely right now.

I can tell so many stories too, of feeling lonely.

Throughout the depressive episode I once suffered from, I felt a vast emptiness and loneliness, quite an all-consuming fear.

It took me months to realize that being alone is not necessarily a bad thing.

I lost so many friends at one point, somewhere between the age of 17 and 18, I started to question myself if I was a good human being or whether I was disloyal. Many of my friends were really fickle, so that did not help at all to decide if I was a good friend or not.

Now I was there. I was left with only a small circle of friends who barely ever contacted me, and I felt myself slipping into a spiral of loneliness that seemed inescapable.

One night, I found myself plunging into an abyss so deep and dark that it seemed to swallow the very essence of light.

The air around me felt dense with a thick layer of dust, and the oppressive darkness felt as if the shadows of despair had finally conspired to ensnare me within their labyrinth of isolation. In that moment, surrounded by the suffocating gloom, it seemed as though all hope had vanished, leaving me lost in a maze of profound loneliness.

Had I fallen back into depression so soon? Had the winter blues reached out it's claws to pull me in beforehand?

Yet, that night marked a profound turning point in my life.

When I finally awoke from that night's tormented slumber, it was as though the very fabric of my existence had undergone a dramatic shift.

I came to a startling realization with a clarity so intense it was almost illuminating: I did not need anyone else to find true happiness.

The onus of my well-being, my emotions, and the trajectory of my life rested solely upon my own shoulders.
It became abundantly clear that I was the only person who could shape my own destiny.

With this newfound understanding, it was time for me to rise from the depths of my despair and seize the opportunity to embrace and fully appreciate the life that had been bestowed upon me. It was a chance to live with purpose, to forge my own path, and to make the most of the precious gift that God had entrusted to me.

Only I could decide, whether I wanted to be happy now.

Only I can decide, whether to make the most of my life now.

It really was upon me to find joy in doing activities the solo way and not doing it with friends.

For example, trying new hobbies, or dancing, going on walks and so on.

I woke up and it had felt as if my frontal lobe had developed.

I was thanking God for giving me a light mind and lifting up the fogs by His rays of sunshine.

It was freeing.

In the reflective solitude of my own company, I became increasingly aware of the absence of close friendships in my life.

This realization initially provoked a sense of loneliness and existential unease, as I mentioned before.

However, as I continued to engage in introspection, I arrived at a significant and liberating insight. I understood that, even in the seeming void of social interaction, I was never truly alone. I discovered that I could rely on my own inner strength, on myself, and the enduring presence of God.

This revelation was profoundly emancipating.
I recognized that my happiness and sense of fulfillment were not dependent on the presence or approval of others. Instead, I found solace in the steadfast companionship of God and in the intrinsic resilience I possessed.

This realization liberated me from the need for external affirmation, fostering a deep sense of inner peace and self-assurance. I came to appreciate that true contentment is derived from an intimate connection with oneself and the divine, rather than from external social validation.

Shawn was right.

You'll never be alone.