𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐃𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐌'𝐒

Chapter 1: give everything up

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Location:Springfield
As I opened my almond-shaped, brown eyes, I felt the warmth of the sun's rays hitting my dark, now glowing skin. A deep growl escaped me as I wished the sun had taken five more minutes to rise. I tried to hide under my sheets to escape the bitter reality that I had to get ready for school.

I am incredibly grateful for the opportunity to study at the best university in the U.S., but it also feels like a curse coming from a not-so-wealthy family. It makes me the black sheep on this campus. Next to me hang my hated work clothes on the dresser, which I have to wear every day to pay the horrendous tuition fees that makes me eat cheap noodles at the end of the month; I feel like a slave to capitalism.

"Good morning Amina!" I greeted my roommate, who is a fresh first-year trying to adjust to this mad place. I'm a morning person, so I was confused as to why I woke up feeling so weird today. Something felt different. "Hello, sweetie, did you sleep well?" she asked as she poured her morning coffee. "Yeah... I guess..." I thought about telling her about my not-so-great morning but decided against it.

I looked out the window. The trees outside the dorm swayed gently in the wind, and the first students were making their way to their lectures. Part of me envied their carefree attitude while I wrestled with the thought of my upcoming workday and my bills.

"Have you thought about what you want to do after class today?" my roommate asked as she got ready. I turned my attention to her and shrugged. "I think I'll just head home after work and study a bit. Maybe go over a few chapters for the next exam."

She nodded, "That sounds like a solid plan. You really don't need to stress too much. You're doing great!" Her optimism was infectious, and I couldn't help but return a small smile.
"How about you, what are you planing" I returned her question. She looked at me with a grin " soo, there is a really nice get together at the end of the day and I thought of going there, maybe with you.." I immediately declined " no no I'm sorry you know I don't have time for that. I have to work and and study I- I just can't okey.. " My voice lost its tone at the end. Her eyes went down and she came closer "it's okay I get it, look if you ever change your mind just text me kay.?"
"Mhm" knowing that won't ever happen.
I just can't risk it, I won't! I will do it,even if it's mean missing out.
Yet, inside, the worry nagged at me about whether I could accomplish everything I had set out to do.

Once I got dressed, I headed out to the university. The fresh air helped clear my thoughts. I knew I would give my all to pursue my dreams, even if the path ahead was rocky.

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Location: London, Chelsea
7:30am

As I opened my siren-shaped, green eyes, the warmth of the sun's rays kissed my fair, now glowing skin. A deep growl escaped my rose-pink lips as I wished the sun had taken five more minutes to rise. I tried to burrow deeper under my sheets, hoping to escape the shitty reality of this day.

I slipped my feet into my slippers, perfectly placed in front of my bed, thanks to Ingrid. She has been here since I was a baby, and this place would be in chaos without her.

As I walked down the stairs. Just as I expected, a generous selection of food greeted me. I sat down and greeted everyone, "Hey, guys." My mother looked up and replied with a simple, "Morning."

"Where's Nathan?" I asked, searching for my little brother.

"He's already at school," Ingrid said as she entered the room with a steaming cup of coffee. I thanked her and pulled out my phone.

I finished eating and left with no notice.

I stepped into masons  black car that waits for me every morning, why make the effort of driving myself if I have him to do it.

We arrived ,unfortunately, at our university. My bag made its way on my back. It's filled with notes of my business class, I never liked numbers and I will never, this class is not helping my "phobia".

"Im gone, see you at 9" Mason left me alone. I stood there and thought.
But the thought about my upcoming class gave me a headache so I stopped thinking , I'm good at that.
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5:20
"This class is over!, ehm Matthew can you please stay" my professor looked at me.
My heart sunk, and I tried to remember everything I did these past days, but I can't seem to recall anything, "I'm fucked" I thought.
...
"I'm really proud of you" professor told me.
"What"
"Hahah how could you forget, I mean Springfield" I looked confused and tried to understand something but this old guy is making it harder than it should be.
"Well Matthew... I found out about you getting into Springfield, and I'm really happy that you are trying to find your own path with starting at one of the best universities"
excuse me ?
"Yeah oh I totally forgot haha..yeah..thanks really..appreciate it!" I only could play along
"I don't want to keep holding you back just wanted to tell you that, you can go Matthew now"
I smiled and scratched the back of my head.
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The gate opens and I stepped in to confront my parents about this ridiculous talk.
"Ingrid where is my mother"
"I'm here" my mother answered faster.
I walked to her, fast.
"Mom"
"Yes, my son"
"My professor told me something about me going to Springfield" I prayed this is only a mistake but deep in my heart I already know the truth.
I'm just afraid to hear it out loud
"Yes indeed"
"My son, me and your father decided it's better for you to continue your studies in Springfield , and of course they accepted you, how could they not" mumbling her last words.

I was mad and confused ,a little part of me  even sad
Since I was a little boy I've heard the words "we decided",to everything. I thought as I would grow older I will finally have my freedom to express myself and act upon my liking.
But this feels like the whole process falling together
like a house of cards.
I don't want this. I never did and never will!
"How would you know what's better for me!" As my anger grew my voice got louder.
"Because I do- No WE do, you are only a little naive boy who knows nothing about life" she spits her words at me
"do you even care if I want to go there?!"
" No I don't, it doesn't matter, in this family there is no " I want" "I wish"", forget that and be a Man. Get out of my face now I'm getting migraines!
I will never support her.
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6:40
I started at my ceiling thinking, again.
I remember her words "I wish"
What do I "wish" what do I even want?
Do I even have Dreams? Or is everything planned out for me and I'm supposed to be dreamless.
...I don't want to be dreamless

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So what will Matthew do now ?

Hey guys this is the first chapter, I hope yall like it. There will come more
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