My Time with You

MTWY 2

Asha Eliana

The night is still young. I can hear my heart beating strongly—not because I'm in love, but out of fear. The fear of not being able to help someone in need...

"Yah!" I yelled at the person standing outside the guardrail. He's keenly staring at the lake below.

He seemed startled when I called out to him. He looked at me, curiosity evident in his eyes.

But I realized I have never been in this kind of situation before! What should I do?

I may appear serious on the outside, but I'm panicking on the inside! Oh no...

Sighing, I cleared my throat.

"Ah... Nganong naa ka dira?" I asked gently.
(Trans. Bakit andyan ka?)

Wait, what? What did I say?

I mentally smacked myself. That was the stupidest thing I could have said.

Of course, why would someone like him be at the end of the guardrail in the middle of the night!

It's frustrating not knowing what to do.

I glanced at the man, who is now puzzled by my words. Maybe he thinks I'm stupid.

I sighed as I tried again.

"Buang ka?! Kanaog dira uy!" I yelled back again.
(Trans. Baliw ka ba?! Bumaba ka diyan!")

That was... so rude of me.

I noticed that he moved; I think he's going to this side now. I walked in his direction, planning to help him when suddenly... he slipped!

I yelled at him, worried about his welfare. But it was lucky that he was quick; both his arms reached the guardrail before he could fall.

I held my breath. I don't want to burst out because of my anxiousness but then.....

"Okay! Kasabot ko daghan kag problema pero, is it right nga mag hikog ka? Pag tarong diara, daghan tawo nanganduy og taas nga kinabuhi tapos Ikaw sayangan ra nimo?! " I said

My eyes are now Misty because I don't know if I want to cry because of frustration or nervousness.

(Trans. "Okay! Naiintindihan ko na marami Kang problema. But, is it right na tapusin mo ang Buhay mo? Umayos ka, maraming tao na pinapangarap na tumaas Ang buhay nila tapos Ikaw sasayangin mo lang?!")

I didn't sound comforting but I don't care. I was panicking right now! I don't want my conscience to eat me alive just because I didn't help someone who wants to end its life.

He just stared at me speechless, I scratched my scalp hard as frustration ate me. I want to cry right now.

Please, someone help me...

Because of the tension I felt, my mind went blank. I didn't know what I'm doing. Is this still right?

I also went outside the guardrail like him. I must be crazy for doing this stunt.

I even saw in my peripheral vision that he is alarmed too. I mean he should! If anything happens to me I'll surely haunt him at his sleep every night!

"What are you doing?!" He yelled at me.

He's now thorn on helping me or to tighten his grip on the guardrail.

I squint my eyes on him

Now he knows what it feels like to panic.