the closing light show

the favor

Spring came by in an instant, the rainy and humid atmosphere is perfect for reading.
I'm sitting alone in the library during lunch time to avoid the unbearable noise of the cafeteria. I notice my two friends come in. The room's attention shifts to them making a loud racket in this quiet library. Weird, they're usually at the cafeteria. I look at them and they begin scanning the room looking for someone. Our eyes meet and they begin walking towards me.

"Yo!" They call across the library to me.
I give them an up nod and signaling them to quiet down. "Jai, you've been distant lately, wassup with that?"

"You know, people change."

"Whatchu you mean by that?"

"I don't know what to tell you, I just grew up, I don't mess with that childish stuff anymore." I replied and looked back at my phone, hoping they would leave.

"Are you saying we are immature?"

"Wow." His friend quickly backs him up like a puppy. "So, you don't fuck with us anymore?"

"I guess not." I respond and they look me up and down, then walk out the library, talking amongst themselves. I can't quite hear them, but I can pretty much guess what they're talking about. Notice how they started talking shit right after that? So much for friends, they never gave a damn about me.

*Beginning of the next school year.*

Autumn creeps up on me, the time where the weather is just right for most people. The leaves turn into pretty phoenix feathers and the gentle breeze. All wasted because I'm trapped in this hellhole or as other people may call it, school.

"Hey!" She said as she waves at me.

"Hello..." I respond very awkwardly and monotone. Then she quickly walks away; this stranger started approaching me every day out of the blue to greet me. By the looks of it, she is a first-year student, always carrying her school laptop around in its protective case. I grab my book and close my locker, then head to class.

I feel uncomfortable, but I will never let her know that. Because, you know, it is just a friendly greeting. As much as I hate interactions with strangers, I'd rather not ruin someones day.

Well, why do I hate strangers, you ask? It's not so much strangers but, a good 99% of the people at my school are narcissistic assholes who are disrespectful little twerps who never learned any proper manners and discipline. People who repetitively talk over the teacher and disrespect other people. I cannot stand them, as incompetent as the teacher is, you still respect her. That is just the right thing to do. Maybe they do it for the money, who cares? Don't we all act with a goal or self-centered intentions in mind sometimes? Get off your high horse pedestal. I always abide by the golden rule, "Treat others how you want to be treated."

Maybe this will make me unliked, because I don't gossip my head off and use it as the only conversation tool. That is fine by me; I only need 1, maybe 2 friends. However, we throw this word "friend," around quite commonly. Who are really your friends? The person you talk to at school and laugh with? The person who asks you to hang out when they need 1 more guy and you are the last one picked? The group chat you're in that wouldn't even notice if u left? Or maybe, the guy you know from elementary school, who rides the same bus as you.

Well, who am I to decide who is a friend, but the main problem at hand right now is.

My.

School.

It freaking sucks! They banned all technology. Tell me why, please! I cannot believe I have to do this for my senior year. A chronic music listener, such as I, craves music and tunes. I cannot bother to walk through the loud hallways and the people standing around blocking the paths without my music. My majestic and ethereal music playlist will not listen to itself! By the way, did I tell you all I have long hair so I can just hide my headphones anyway?