+18 Welcome to my life, where I will journal entry write and upload real pictures of the real details of my life. Little about me I'm an American who works as an independent executive protection agent, I'm proficient in 4 languages other than Engli...
Shit, it's been a while huh? I guess sometimes I get so busy I forget to make time for the small things. Also, kind of sad I wrote my first chapter in my new book, yet no answer yet about who has guessed who my actual crush is on. Oh well, I'll just have to keep writing the story and see where it takes me. Before we dig into the past of my crazy life some more, I want to ask a question to all my readers. Is it crazy, to crush on someone on this app? Especially if you never met them, but based off their work, slight conversation with them you just know you would hit it off well. Dwell on that readers and let me know, now let's get back to it.
We finished off last part on a decent note, this part is going to have my first heartbreak, the first time my dick got me in trouble with friends, and some more crazy stories about Connor and I. So, strap in because it's about to be a bumpy ride and let's do this.
So, near the end of my sophomore year in high school I was dating Alicia now a senior. We were dating for a year, and to be honest things were amazing. Just like any horny teenager kids, we were having the times of our life's. To be honest there wasn't a place in that town we didn't get it on, the park, bedroom, changing room at the mall, hell the girl's bathroom at the school. Man, to be young again, but to be honest my favorite part was just cruising around town jamming out to music and going to the lake with each other and friends. But all good things must come to a end, a lesson in my life I haven't learned yet and to be honest wasn't fucking prepared to handle yet.
With the end of school year near, Senior prom was around the corner. By the way it's funny as I write this my computer just knows what songs to play while I write. The weekend by Brantley Gilbert just came on and I swear this song reminds me of high school, also if you want to know what I dressed like and acted like in high school days just watch the music video. Anyways its Prom around the bend and Alicia and I were going. This was going to be the night I told her I loved her. She had always said it to me, but I never said it back just didn't feel right. But I was going to tell her that night. You see she was going to college at the University of Wisconsin, only like 2 hours from where we lived. So, I was thinking we would stay together, man was I wrong.
I bought a promise ring, and before y'all judge me. I know it was a total tacky move on my part but fuck y'all it felt right when I was 16. Anyways I got all dolled up I had my rented tux, not going to lie I hated it. I was always a jeans and ripped up t-shirt kid of guy, but I think I cleaned up pretty well. Well, here is a picture of me and two of my friends from the wrestling team, so you tell me if I cleaned up well.
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Man, I really should've done my hair that night, maybe I wouldn't have gotten my heart broken ha-ha. Anyways Alicia was beautiful as ever that night, and the prom was at this convention hall on the shores of Lake Michigan. It was gorgeous setting, my plan was to walk the shoreline with Alicia and tell her I loved her and give her, the promise ring I bought. So we danced the night away, everything was going well. Before I knew it, the last slow dance of the night was coming on. Man fuck you EVE 6 Here's to the night, song is forever ruined for me now lol not really but seriously it kind of is.
Right near the end of the song I Alicia asked if we could go somewhere quiet. Me being oblivious, all I could think about was the once in a lifetime moment I was about to have. So, we go outside and walk down towards the beach, the sound of waves crashing could be heard, and it was a full moon and clear night sky. I reached into my back pocket to grab the ring and tell her how I felt. But as I stumbled with my words, Alicia stopped me as she started to cry a little bit. I wiped the tears away from her face, and that when she looked at me and said that we are both going in different directions now, and its time we grow apart. In lesser words she dumped my ass, and that shit hit me like a ton of bricks. She walked away and left me on the beach by myself, now a lot of emotions ran through me. Anger, but mostly that sadness anger, I felt embarrassed, like if I was broken into a thousand pieces. I chucked the ring I bought into the water. Now this is where my personality changed a bit.
You see I was a good boyfriend, always treated a girl right, made sure her comfort and happiness were first priority, and it was all destroyed. I felt like a used napkin that didn't quite make it to the trash. I don't know maybe I was too young to understand but, in the moment, and later that night I realized what it was like to be a bachelor. Also, now that I'm older and wiser she was absolutely right to break up with me, we both were starting different chapters in our life's. But young dumb me obviously didn't see it like that back then. Instead of going home and crying my eyes out into my pillow, I went to prom after party. If you never been to a prom after party, it's basically a drunken orgy in a way. At least it was where I was from, we really must have been bored in the Midwest.
So, I'm at this party drinking like everyone else, when a group of girls that I kind of knew walked up to me. They were led by Jamie who was a junior and was captain of the gymnastics team. She leaned up on me and asked me where Alicia was tonight. I just ignored the question as a chugged my beer, but after a nice chug of liquid encouragement, I just said she's no longer around. Jamie knew why she was asking because by know the rumors were swirling around that we broke up, you know how small-town drama goes. Jamie asked me if the rumors about me are true. I asked what rumors, and she just smirked and said you know, that you're a wild child, with a big chip on his shoulder and even bigger one between my you know what. Got to admit she was not afraid to ask. Playing it cool I just said why you want to find out if they are. She said and if I do as she literally grabbed me by my junk making me almost spill my beer.
We proceeded to make out right there, as we went to go find an empty bedroom at this house party. Now when I say we fucked like two bulls in a China shop, even then it wouldn't do it justice. We went at it all night literally falling asleep a hour before the sunrise, now this was the first time I was with someone else other than Alicia and it was an experience let me tell you. So, we woke up, well I woke up to her trying to leave the room, but she literally said it's no big deal, you're a stud, you have no idea how many girls at this school been wanting a shot at you. I laid back in the bed as she left, and the new me was born that morning. My fame or infamy that I garnered in that town was finally going to be used to my advantage. I spent an entire year of my youth hanging on to one girl who honestly had one foot out the door before we ever got together.
Alright there is so much more to tell but it's almost 1 in the morning, I'm tired and I need to finally get some sleep. Going to end this a little differently, I'm going to pass on some wisdom that I like to follow or has made an impact in my life. "A Lion doesn't concern himself by the opinion of sheep." with that being said I wish all of you wherever you are in the world, a goodnight. Stay safe, Live life, Love Life. Till next time...
