Hi...
I honestly don't know what to say.
First of, thank you. Thank you for everything. I'm really blessed to have you as a friend— I mean, best friend. I really do enjoy your company. I enjoy talking to you. Most especially, I enjoy laughing with you over the most random of things.
I love you... No, not Eros or Phileo. I meant, Agape love. The love described in 1 Corinthians 13 because that's how God taught me to love.
It was just a simple admiration at first. A happy crush. But I've grown attached and I got to know you over time.
Thank you for being my support system during my review. Aside from coming home to my family, there was also another thing that made me look forward to— getting to actually see you and spend time with you. I was stoked. Excited. Happy.
I was willing to wait. I mean, I already had a feeling that we both like each other but don't have the plan of entering into a relationship yet. I was willing to keep this charades, having you as a friend and a crush at the same time.
But you just dropped bombs, one after the other. I finally understood everything— especially your words that didn't make sense to me before. But I got selfish. I didn't think much about it. Instead, I was only focused on the fact that we just admitted to liking each other. Sorry about that.
I understand if you want to keep things as it is between us. You know, as friends, just like before. But deep inside, we both know that it's never going to be like before. We can still be friends but I feel like a rift has been created.
Then again, I respect your decision.
Just know, these feelings of mine won't be gone anytime soon. I will still keep on admiring you from afar, if that's what would make you comfortable. Even though I miss you everyday, it's okay. I won't bother you as much as I did before, even if it pains me.
It's not your fault. It's probably mine for being delusional. Maybe at some point, I fell in love only with the idea of you in my head. I'm sorry if I may have overlooked the real you.
But now that I actually know... For your information, I still like you. I'm stubborn, aren't I? I'm afraid that I scared you off for saying that.
I hope and I pray for your peace of mind, and your relationship with God. I pray that we both would grow in Him first of all.
Hi crush! I love you with the love of the Lord.
PS. I guess I can't really get mad at you either.
