Own You

Chapter 28

My lovely Sylvia has returned to me. I haven't seen her in two and a half years. Though some of her natural pizazz is gone, she is still Sylvia, and she delights in every moment of being with the children and me. Of course, Emilio has been a dick about letting us have our alone time, but we still find ways. I was never interested in women until I met Sylvia. She's the best sex I've ever had outside of Borya. She makes me feel things I've only ever fantasized about.

Still, I've noticed she isn't happy at all. She puts on a good front, but I can tell being with Emilio takes a toll on her. Her body becomes noticeably rigid when he enters a room, we're in or touches her. Emilio makes a big show of it too, he knows she is terrified of him now. She used to have his favor, and now she doesn't. He simply keeps her around for her family name and connections and to torture me. My feelings for Sylvia are the closest thing to love I've had since Borya's death.

Emilio keeps her at arm's length from me just to dangle something I care about over my head. He manipulates me into doing things so I can hope for him to grant us a phone call or visit together. The evil fuck knows how to get to me, but he's no Antonio when it comes to psychological torture. Heck, he's not even on Jamal's level. In due time, I will have my revenge and he is the first piece of the puzzle.

Over the last month, Sylvia and I have come up with a few plans I have been working on by myself. She seems more enthusiastic whenever we discuss plans to kill him. I won't tell her about my plans to take the rest of them down until I know I can pull off killing Emilio. Besides, as much as I care for her, I don't trust her fully. Being in this fucked up family has shown me I always have to be on guard. This is why I'm trying to eliminate as many variables as possible.

But in a place like this, there are nothing but variables. Especially the kids being here. I will take my kids with me no matter what. I can't leave them behind. So, this plan is going to take a lot of major steps, spaced out over a decent amount of time. Zhou being here throws my plans off slightly. I still don't know what to make of him. And we have spoken little since that night in my bedroom.

He told me to call him DJ, though. Said Zhou was too formal with someone he cares about so much. I don't know what to do with that sentiment. Plus, he still hasn't told me how he knows that name. I plan on cornering him by himself when he works out in the morning. I woke up early today just so I can, hopefully it pays off. DJ has officially become a part of the collective, which means I belong to him.

I hope he isn't playing some game with me; unfortunately, I wouldn't put it past him to try to make me lower my guard. I don't know him well enough to make an official judgement call. But I guess I'll have more time to since they have decided that he will be next in line to put a baby in me. Jaden seems fine with twins and doesn't want more kids, for now. To make matters more awkward, he gets to have me back-to-back. So, I'll be living with him for two years.

I don't know if I can handle any more kids. My body can only take so much. I must escape before a year's time. That's how long I'm giving myself. Hopefully, I can keep myself from getting pregnant with the pills Sylvia snuck for me. I didn't even have to ask her for them. She told me when I saw her in Colombia last, she would get them for me. Sylvia knows the burden this is when I need to escape.

Sylvia's always known I wanted to escape. She gave me natural herbs anytime she saw me after Borya's death. It kept me safe temporarily, but my men are persistent. They always find a way to put a baby in me. She got me enough pills to last nine months; I have to make them stretch as much as possible. After I have this child with Emilio, I plan on swallowing those pills faithfully. I have to get out of this place and the more babies I have, the harder it will be.

Caleb and I haven't talked about what I said that night since he found me in the closet. He says he wants me to focus on the kids and my plan. Caleb feels nothing is more important than helping me escape, not even his feelings. I can't believe how amazing he can be. He's always sacrificing and putting himself on the line for me.