Angels Roll Their Eyes ~ Traylor fanfic

I Can Pass This Test

Alright. So. The nausea at what, like, 6-10 a.m. hast stopped, I haven't had a period in a month which is means something is obviously wrong, and I've been very emotional... more than I normally am at least. I think this may be more than just a bug.

As I walk into the kitchen, the smell of coffee alone is enough to send me running toward our bathroom. Damn I hate this shit. First it's taking more than likely my uterus and now my coffee. I think I'm gonna die.

Just as I finish vomiting, I'm sitting in the floor against the wall sobbing with my knees to my chest, and my head in my knees. Suddenly I feel a pair of strong arms wrap around me, and pull me in. I know who it is. Travis.

"Hey Baby you ok?" He asks with concern.
"Mhm." I say to try to calm him down a little.
"You sure, because you've been throwing up constantly for the past month... and been more emotional than normal."
"I know," I mumble into his but not quite loud enough for him to hear me.
"I'm sorry what was that? I didn't hear you." He states.
"I know," I repeat louder this time. "That's the thing." I say starting to get somewhere.
"What do you mean Honey?"
"I... umm... I..." i can't manage to get it out of mouth.
"It's ok Baby. Just let it all out."
"I-I-I-I... I think I..." I continue ,still not getting it all out.
"Sshhhh. It's ok. I'm right here. Always have been always will be." He assures.
"I-I think I'm...," I trail off, leaving him curious. "I think I'm pregnant." I say quietly, but just loud enough for him to hear.
"Tay, sweetie. Look at me." He says using his finger to guid my chin, making me look him in the eye.
"Hm." I hum in acknowledgment.
"This is amazing alright. We'll figure this out together. Ok? I'm right here with you. Through it all. The good and the bad."
"Thank you." I say through tears... again. "I love you."
"I love you too baby," he continues in a soft caring voice. "Whatever it is, we'll get through it together. Ok?"
"Mhm."
"Do you know what your other symptoms have been if you've had any others?" He softly asks.
"I... um... I haven't had my period in like, a month which should've been a dead giveaway," I say still listing symptoms. "I've been throwing and hella emotional which has been obvious, I've also been unrealistically tired."
"Would you like me to go get you some tests?" He asks, his tone loving, yet firm and genuine. In response I just nod into his chest. "I'll be back in about 10 ok Baby."
"Mk."
"Alright, I love you and our possible baby SO much." He replies with is hopes up.
"I love you too. But don't get your hopes up. We don't know anything yet." I say trying bring him back.
"I know. But I hope you are."
"I love you." I say leaning up to kiss is lips for about what felt like forever, but was really only 30 seconds.
"I love you too. I'll be back soon."
"Ok. Don't take too long."
"I won't."

As he heads out to pick up the tests, I head to the living and turn on my comfort show. Friends. I know I more than likely am, but what if I'm not and I just let both Travis and myself down. What if I just got our hopes up for nothing. I know when I first realized I'm probably pregnant, I wasn't excited. Like. At all. But now I genuinely want this. I genuinely want this baby. If we have one. I know I should probably be trying to stay calm, but I can't help but think 'what is everything goes wrong,' 'what if I'm not and my body is just fucked up and I let Trav down,' 'what if I'm just not meant to be a mom.' This feeling is so bittersweet.

About 10 minutes later, Travis walks in with the grocery bag. He's here. The tests are here. Our answer. God I just go so nervous. I really hope these things say positive.

"Tay, Honey. I'm home." I announced through the house.
"I'm right here." I say emerging from a pile of blankets on the couch.
"You ready?" He asks coming over to hug me reassuringly.
"Yeah." I say with a slight hesitance.
"Alright baby. Here you go," He says handing over the WalMart bag with the tests in it. "Do you want me to go with you."
"Mhm. Yeah. Please?"
"Of course baby." He says starting to follow me to the bathroom.

As he stands outside the bathroom, I'm in here freaking out as I start to take the first test of 3 tests. I don't think I've ever been more anxious than I am right now before in my life. God I'm scared.

I'm unwrapping the third and final test because my anxious ass mind won't let me just take one. I have to take them all.

As I set the last test down in the counter face down, I let Travis in. He's just as anxious as I. I can just feel it.

"Hey how you feeling?" He asks walking in.
"Terrified. Nervous. Anxious. Excited. Stressed. You know?" I say breathing a little heavily.
"Hey, hey, hey. Sshhhh. It's ok. It's ok. It's gonna be ok." He says wrapping in a warm comforting embrace "whatever happens, we're gonna get through it together. Ok?"
"Ok." I say my breathing calmer now. "Thank you. I needed that. Like really needed that."
"It's ok." Sooner than later he was cut off by the sound of the 3 minute timer, which also caused my head to snap up toward the tests in return.

As I walk up to the bathroom counter, I start to procrastinate. I don't wanna turn them over but I wanna know so bad. God with us so anxiety enduring. Ugh!

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I left it on a cliffhanger! Hehehehehe!

Wildest dreams ily🤟🏼