You know... I know...- A Yoonmin AU

10. Room for Guilt

In the ICU room:-

Jungkook was conscious now. Sound and smiling. After talking to all the members, Yoongi finally came forward. His eyes had a hint of tears and his heart was still pounding with fear. "Hyung?" Jungkook called softly.

"Is it... Hurting?" Jungkook smiled and nodded a little. "Just a little." Yoongi chuckled. "Sorry, we should've been more careful." Jungkook chuckled too. "Yeah, yeah!" He mocked. "Where is Jimin hyung?" His eyes wandered around.

"He's downstairs, in the parking lot." The manager smiled while entering in. Yoongi let out a scoff. "Yoongi, don't you think you did too much today?" Yoongi glared at Jin. "He took care of Jungkook. He stayed with him. Unfortunately whatever happened, he wasn't there. Of course, he's aware that he made a mistake but-"

"A mistake that brought jungkook in ICU room." He mocked. "Hyung but.... The reaction was bit over, don't you think. He was crying and he didn't give any excuse. He accepted his mistake, he apologized."

Yoongi looked down. The face of crying Jimin flashed in front of his eyes, those tears and his attempt to hold them back. "Say sorry to him, hyung. I know Jimin hyung was by my side the whole time. Just when I woke up, I was thirsty and in the attempt, I fell. He was crying back then too."

Now... He felt guilty. "I will... Apologize to him." He said in low yet clear voice. Jungkook smiled. "Thank you hyung, for taking care of me."
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"I swear, Namjoon! He said he would wait here!" Manager recited. "Goddamn!" Namjoon growled with worry spanning his mind. All others looked at Yoongi who was staring at the blank spot where the car was parked.

"He isn't picking up my calls!" Tae groaned with desperation while trying to call him again. Jungkook was discharged right away after a few safety and hygiene instructions. It was time to go home when 6 of them got to know about Jimin's departure.

Taehyung groaned again with a stump of his leg. "Let's first go home, then think about the whole situation." Manager suggested and others had no choice but to agree.
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"I'm sorry." Yoongi said with his head hanging low after taehyung's continuous growls. "It's okay now, we can't change what happened-" Jin tried to undertake the situation

"What's okay? Can't you see hyung? Jimin is not with us right now and nobody knows where he is! Whatever fuss you made about his mistake was more than enough to trigger his long gone anxiety issues!" Yoongi looked up with a jerk when he realized.

Jimin's anxiety issues were worse few days back and he had to visit psychiatric for the same. Members would always try to keep him in a good and sound surrounding for the same.

"What are we gonna do now?!" The manager finally let his worry out in a low voice, not to disturb jungkook who has taken pills and has slept. "I think I should inform PD-nim about this." He said rather in a questioning tone. "Can I request you to keep it between for an hour or something. We'll wait for him to come back in an hour and if he doesn't then we'll report this...

... Is that okay?" He gave a nod but his mind was filled with worry for Jimin. It's been 2 hours since Jimin went out. No sign of him. They all sat down. Someone was sighing occasionally while someone was frowning.

Yoongi was the most silent person present there. He was just looking down. He was disappointed. Disappointed with himself. He couldn't forgive himself for whatever he did with Jimin today.

He was constantly thinking about where Jimin could be? If he's fine or not? He won't do anything wrong with himself, right? He hoped Jimin didn't.

Eyes filled with tears, threatening to fall anytime, yoongi left the room, on the way to his own. He locked the door in attempt to block any other noise and any other conversation including Jimin's absence.

He sat down on his bed for a few minutes, calmed himself and went to the living again because he had no other option than to sit back and wait. "Where are others?" He asked the manager seeing no one in the room. "They went to freshen up. I think I should leaven for office now. PD nim was calling me a few minutes back." Yoongi gave a nod.

"Can you please not talk to him about this. I will ring you immediately when Jimin comes back. Is that-" He tried to reassure manager's silence.

"I know. I promise you, I won't say a word." He smiled a little. With not so much good in the bye, he left the mansion leaving yoongi all alone in the living room and his own regrets. Yoongi sat down on the sofa waiting for others when the door opened.

"Jimin?" Yoongi whispered seeing Jimin who straight up went to his room. "Jimin wait!" Jimin rather decided to lock the door.
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Jimin's PoV-

"Jimin wait!" His voice was filled with regret yet relief. I locked the door and stayed silent, sliding against the wall while my other roommates ran towards me.

"Jimin? Are you fucking idiot? Where were you?! Couldn't you pick my calls at least?!" Tae stormed out on me. "Jimin, don't listen to him. Are you fine? Gosh, your eyes are so red and puffy! Did you cry that much??" I looked at hobi hyung. He was always so caring.

Maybe, he should have stayed back in my place. "Where is Jungkook?" I asked in my almost inaudible voice. "Oh my god Jimin. He's safe, resting in his room, why don't you think about yourself than asking about him in that whispers of yours."

"Jimin-ah, where were you? We were so fucking worried!" I looked at Tae with the same intensity that he held. "Can you guys please leave me alone?" I knew they wouldn't- "We will. If only you tell us, where were you, why did you leave suddenly and if you're totally fine?!"

"How I'm supposed to be totally fine?!" I asked while my tears made their way down my cheeks. "I can't show my face to anyone, especially Jungkook. I broke your trust, 'his' trust!" I exclaimed.

"Are you still thinking about Min Yoongi?! Jimin?!" I didn't answer and looked down, intertwined my hands. "Oh my god... Listen... You shouldn't be blaming yourself. I agree that it was partially your mistake but the way he yelled at you wasn't right at all."

"It was. He warned me multiple times. He trusted me. My mistake wasn't just a mistake, it sent kook to the hospital with his head bleeding!"

That image gave me goosebumps down my spine. "I can't forgive myself hyung! And you guys should not too. Taehyung-ah, I know you must have felt so much anger towards me and I'm willing to accept whatever you guys say and do to me." I said in real low voice this time.

Hobi hyung wiped my tears gently and held my hand. He made me stand up. "Hyung-" He dragged me out of our room with Taehyung following us. We climbed down while I protested not to go. Yoongi hyung was still sitting in the living room.

He was holding his head with both of his hand. Hobi hyung and we passed from his side and we looked up. "Hoseok! Jimin? Where are you taking-" Before I could say or hear anything further I was pushed into Jungkook's room and door was locked.

"HYUNG!" I called out. I didn't want to face him yet... "Jiminie hyungie?!" His weak yet desperate voice made my heart sank much deeper in guilt. "Come here. Sit with me?" I turned to him. He was smiling. I walked toward him and sat down on bed. "Kook I'm sorry!" He chuckled. "For exactly what? For leaving me alone that time Or running away?"

I looked down because I didn't know what to say. "I'll tell you something... "
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