Sister's Bestfriend

Chapter 14

TZUYU'S POV

"How about you, Tzuyu? Why did you suddenly became... more lively... after your event? Are you dating someone?" Momo noona asked. 

"He is dating someone... he just don't want to tell me who..." Nayeon said.

"Because you're too nosy..." I said. 

"You are also nosy... you always knock on my door and do nonsense things when Bambam and I are together." Nayeon said. 

"Because Mom told you to never close the door with a guy in your room... alone... no one knows what will happen... you're not even married." I said. 

"You have a point, but we're just watching movies!" Nayeon said. 

"Erotic movies..." I said. 

"You shouldn't do that, unnie... You really don't know Bambam... He might be fantasizing over you already..." Mina noona said. 

"Wait... why is the topic going to me? I was asking Tzuyu who he is dating!" Nayeon said. 

"Me dating someone is very unusual, but I am not ready to talk about it... so we need to talk about your so called 'boyfriend' because I've never said I gave my blessing, yet you're taking him to your room and locking the doors." I said. 

"Fine... I promise, I'll stay in the living room only when I'm with him... until he gets your blessing..." She said. 

"And married..." I said. 

"Is that a blessing?" She asked. 

"No..." I said. 

"Fine... I'll be more strict with your girlfriend then." She said making me nervous. 

I looked at Sana and she was also looking at me 

We both know that this is going to be hard for us, and I suddenly regretted everything that I said right now. 

After dinner, I drove Sana to her house and the silence in the car was something I wish we can talk about, but I'm too scared to start the conversation. 

"Thanks for driving me... drive home safely..." She said and while she was gathering her things before leaving the car, I held her hand to stop whatever she is doing. 

"What is it?" I asked her. 

"Nothing... we're alright... goodnight..." She said coldly. 

"I know it's not nothing... what is it?" I asked as I locked the door to prevent her from leaving the car. 

"Open the car, Tzuyu..." She said. 

"Not until you tell me what's wrong..." I said. 

She then gave up and rested her whole body back on the seat as she sighed. 

"I think we're going to have a hard time talking to Nayeon unnie..." She said. 

"That's... true... but we can get over it... together, right?" I asked. 

"This is so hard, Tzu... we shouldn't be doing this in the first place..." She said. 

"But I love you, Sana... and I will do everything for you..." I said. 

"I know... and I appreciate everything you're doing for the both of us... but this is tiring... I don't want to give up on us, but the situation is really making everything hard..." She said. 

"But we can get through it..." I said firmly. 

She then closed her eyes and a tear fell on her cheek. 

"Why are you crying?" I asked and wiped the tear off. 

"I'm doubting everything now, Tzu... I really want to hang onto you... but... things are making it hard for me..." She said. 

"If this is about Nayeon... I'll tell her now... when I get home..." I said. 

"It's not just Nayeon... Tzu..." She said. 

"Then what else? Let's talk about this, Sana... don't just leave without telling me the problem and not thinking of a solution..." I said. 

"I don't know if what I am feeling towards you is love... or just infatuation..." She said making me feel like thousand knives wounded me. 

"You... don't love me anymore?" I asked. 

She nodded and wiped her tears. 

"Then... tell me those words while looking straight in my eyes..." I said. 

She shook her head and more tears fell on her cheeks. 

"Sana... tell me... what you really feel..." I said. 

"I loved you, Tzuyu..." She said and opened the door and left me in the car alone. 

I looked at her get in her house, but I couldn't bring myself to follow her. 

I felt numb on my seat and I didn't know how I got home safely. 

Is this how feeling broken feels like? I feel like I was played with... I feel so... emotionless.