TORN (Jinkook) (vmin)

Beautiful things

Jungkook's POV

I stood there watching Jin with our twins walk away, headed to Japan with his family. He had requested an indefinite absence from his company and hadn't specified when he would be back. As they approached the immigration section, Jin turned and waved at me. I could see the love in his eyes as he mouthed, "I love you so much, Jungkook!" I responded with, "I love you, too!" It was heart-wrenching to see them enter with Jungwon in his arms and Sunghoon in his older brother's embrace. I couldn't hold back the tears.

I want them, I need them.

Oh God, Don't take these beautiful things that I've got

Six days ago, they had just finished their project in Ulsan. Jin decided to talk about us. We had a heart-to-heart. When Jin told me he was leaving the country, I was terrified and tried to stop him. "I need you, Jin! I love you so much. The thought of being apart from you and the kids hurts beyond words. Please stay with me. I can't bear to lose you again," I pleaded.

"I need this time to find myself, to heal. It doesn't mean it's indefinite. After that night, and everything that happened, I couldn't think clearly. Please understand, that I'm still healing from what happened. We need to be whole to be the best parents for our children. We need to heal, my love. I promise to keep in touch, send photos and videos of the kids, and let you know when I'm ready to meet again," Jin explained.

I was still looking at the spot where Jin was standing earlier with my children. When someone places his arms around my shoulder.

"Let's go home, bro!" Taehyung said.

I turn to look at my friends; the sadness of Jin and the children's departure can be seen on their faces. Jimin is sobbing. His cousin Taemin comforted him.

"Come on, so we can avoid the traffic," said Yoongi.

Sehun, who couldn't send the kids off at the airport, made a video call to see them one last time. It was a tough moment for everyone.

The children are only 5 months old, but they recognize Sehun's voice and seem pleased to see him even on the screen. This is probably how my life will be. I'll be video-calling my children till Jin decides to meet again.

Every day for the past five months has been like a dream since I have been a father to my children and a partner to Jin. From the moment they were released from the hospital until Seokjin went to work, he allowed me to stay with him in his shared apartment with Jimin. I applied for paternity leave and spent my time caring for and serving them as the head of the family. That is why it was so painful for me to let go of the immense joy they brought into my life.
It was so addicting, I would never let it go but I have to respect his choices and decision.

Anyway, it's just a temporary separation.

I hope, and I pray.

Jin wants us to fully heal so that we may be better parents to our children and partners to each other. So I'll begin by enrolling in a program for alcoholics and drug users. I'll also urge Taehyung. But, sober or not, I believe he should engage in anger management. Yeah, we need help to better our lives for those we care about.

The next time we meet, he will encounter a transformed Jungkook, an improved version of myself.