Come Back To Gusu. Please

The start of a love story..

(Warning: Suicide)

The limp body hangs and sways from the ceiling, a rope making the slightest noise, stretching around the thick neck of hers. Tears prick and fall down your eyes, you fall back, straight on your bottom, and place a hand over your mouth. Your breathing becomes heavier and heavier, and so does your heart. It beats so fast, it feels like it could jump out of your throat!

No.. no, no no no.. No! Your hand clenches hard on your hair, your whole body shivering. "Mother.. Mother" You softly say, bucking your knees to your chest. You're alright. You're alright, everything's alright. It's okay, it's okay-

A quiet, broken soft leaves your sore throat, and you couldn't contain the pain and feeling anymore, it all comes rushing down, tears like an endless waterfall that will never stop

In that quiet moment, large and soft hands cover your eyes, you don't know who's it is. But it feels so familiar. So warm.

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The days and mornings were just as usual. Wake up from nightmares. Get dressed, eat with the Clan.. then go to your classes and study, and train. A very normal day again.. Disciples and members of the other five great clans like the Yunmeng Jiang, Lanling Jin, Qinghe Nie, Qishan Wen, and the clan you're affiliated to... the Gusu Lan, visit and learn the arts of cultivation here. And sometimes, you take trips to the other clans, to learn skills there too.

There was never enough time to hang out with Lan Zhan, like those old times. You two have grown up, and you don't remember the last time he smiled. The last time he let out a laugh, it felt like forever. And how you two are fifteen, grown and matured

For him, you've grown different, ever since you've lost your mother, it changed you. It changed you a lot, like you're a whole different person. He can't remember the last time you've done something reckless. And he can't lie, he misses that. Those times where you two would hang out in the fields, chat and pet rabbits.

Your robes and headband flutter behind you as you make your way to your class, and you hear.. a rather loud voice beyond the distance. A man, was he laughing? Or screaming, who knows?
You can't lie, it intrigues you for a second, before you go on with your day. You feel slightly annoyed, first, there shouldn't be any yelling in Cloud Recesses. How shameless and disrespectful of the rules...

You head to your class, and you see Lan Zhan, sitting at his seat already, you were about to say his nickname, but you can't. It's unprofessional, "Wangji." You clear your throat, sitting beside him at your desk, "Good morning,"
The male turns to you, almost in a flash, "Morning, Y/N." His voice makes your stomach twist and turn, you would be a lier if you didn't say it or deny it, "...How are you?" Lan Zhan asks, it was typical of him to ask you how your morning was
"Good." You simply reply with a tiny yet visibly happy smile, placing down your sword at your desk, "Although, I heard there was some kid. He sounded loud, his voice is ear splitting
Lan Zhan hums in response, "Do you know who he is?" He wasn't interested at all, but he just wanted to know, "No." It's the only answer you can provide, for now

A few minutes in, there are three males who walk into the room, you heard about only one of them- Nie Huaisang, Jiang Cheng, and.. a third one, dressed in dark gray and red. He seems to be out of the crowd, he must be new too, "Lan Zhan? Lan Wangji?" "Yes..- He's in charge of discipline. Everyone fears him.."

You listened in one their conversation, but not in the slightest, are you interested, "Good thing is, he likes meditating alone, so we don't see him around often. But.. he has this friend." Nie Huaisang whispers to the unfamiliar male, "Who??" "Uh, their name is Lan Y/N. They are surprisingly his only friend. But they're just like him..! Not only are they stoic, but they're unapproachable...!"
But Nie Huaisang did not realize that you and Lan Zhan are already sitting at your seats, which makes his gasp, possibly in fear or what not

It surprised him, clearly, he didn't think you'd be sitting with the aloof but well known Lan Wangji!
A gust of wind blows through his hair, sitting straight while you just whisper things about rabbits and cultivating. But also some... sweet nothings that he'll eventually forget about.. totally

"How is it him?.. and Y/N!" The one in red smiled awkwardly, while all you do is narrow your eyes to the side, secretly gazing at him without him noticing. Lan Zhan turns his head, staring coldly at the other guy, but the Nie points his fan to his friend, "Wuxian, have you done something wrong?" He flaps his paper fan open, peeking over to this "Wuxian" guy

"Well..." Wuxian starts. Man, he must've done something wrong. But you don't even know

"Wangji, do you know this man?" You ask, intrigued, a slight and amused smile on your lips, "Yes." Lan Zhan replies, calmly nodding, "His name is Wei Ying. Courtesy name, Wei Wuxian. He's broken 3 rules since yesterday, drinking wine, going out at night, and privately fighting." You sigh, "So he's a rule breaker..." You shake your head, sitting up straight again

Wei Ying turns back to you and Lan Zhan, who are peacefully sitting at your seats already, Lan Zhan's stare hardens into a glare. Furrowing his eyebrows at Wei Ying. Your gaze was indifferent, peaceful and easy going, but stern. Nie Huaisang awkwardly shuffles away, while Jiang Cheng places a hand on his shoulder, "He's watching you. Good luck.." He whispers, but it was loud enough for you since you sat a bit closer

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Lan Qiren dropped a scroll, of rules. Starting the lesson off by saying the rules of Gusu, but the looking trouble maker, Wei Ying, seemed to have misbehaved. Making Qiren kick him out, but he seems happy enough to leave the class

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You stand above the stairs, behind Wangji and the others, "Wangji!~" Wei Ying seems to be quite interested in Lan Zhan, but he hasn't seen you yet, nor does he know you. But Wangji turns around, walking up the stairs again, making you smile, "A-Zhan," He stops in his tracks once you call him, but not his courtesy, looking back at you with softened eyes, "If you have time, we can see the rabbits later." The only thing he does is nod, immediately walking away, but you can tell he is more than happy to join you for a small hang out again

You walk down the steps, invading the conversation the three were having, "Ah, it's Lan Y/N." Nie Huaisang has a sheepish smile on his face, holding tight to his fan. Your face looked indifferent, but your eyes were sparkling with interest, that was unreadable due to your hardened expression, "Greetings." Your voice sounded calm, but it scratched against your throat, making you sound cold, it almost makes Nie Huaisang jump and back away for the sake of his own life too

"Aha," Wei Ying was the first to speak up, "So this is Lan Zhan's friend?" The word "friend" makes your heart clench a little, you feel like you're.. more than just a friend- "Mhm." You hum, holding your sleeve to your stomach, "I believe I have heard you three have been.. whispering things about Wangji and me?... What was it all about?"

You are clearly lying, you know what they're all talking about, you've been eavesdropping, "Uh-uhm! It was nothing at all, Lan Y/N!" Nie Huaisang says hurriedly, flapping his fan in front of his face, "I see.." You hum, there was a slight, amused smile on your lips, making the three surprised, "Just don't keep secrets for too long. Especially when they're about someone or people who are well known." They don't even understand what you meant, but it almost sounded like a threat...

As you walk away, you can hear Nie Huaisang whisper to Wei Ying and Jiang Cheng, "Did you see Y/N just smile...!"

You laugh, to yourself.