His Guardian Angel

Why I Can't Be With You

So filhal ke dino me baat kuch aesi chal rahi ha ki shubham ki crush ne usse bhav dena shuru kar dia ha.. Or isi vaje se vo aajkal Ishan ko ignore karne lagga ha or jab dekho Sara naam ki maala japtta rehta ha..

Jaan bujkar Ishan ke aage sara sara karta firega... Jab dekho saara ne ye bola.. Sara ne ye post daali.. Sara kitni suundar lag rahi ha.. Saar ne mere lia cheer kia match me.. Sara ne mujhse baat ki.. Sara mujhe dekhkar hassi.. Always acting like a teenager.. 😣

Or vo ye sab haarkate Ishan ke aage karta ha or Ishan hamara pyara sa baby haar baar Shubhman ko support karta ha.. Or haskaar har baar aapna dukh chipa leta ha..

Jabki maan hi maan vo bhot dukhi ha.. Ishan ko bas Shubhman khush chaiye fir chhae usske lia usse khud roz kitna hi tadapna padde.. Kitna hi rona pade.. Kitna hi dard sehna padde.. Bas usse Shubhman khush chaiye.. Or Shubhman ki khushi Sara me ha to fir aab kya hi kar sakte ha..

Dekho me aap sabko phele hi bata detta hu ki isme galti mere Ishan ki  bilkul nhi ha... Phele to Shubhman ne usse itna pamper kiya, uski itni care ki like a real boyfriend or jab mere Ishu ke dil me uske lia soft corner ban gaya or vo usse pasand karne lagga toh baad me Shubhman bolta ha ki we are just friends and i like sara... Like seriously what is this bullshit.. Hate this shubhman creature

Kaamina kahi ka... Bichare mere Ishu ke masuum se dil ko tod dia .. Vese bhi nazuk sa toh ha mera Ishu kishu... Uski aankho me jab bhi us kaamine ki vaje se aansu dekhta hu na toh aag si laag jaati ha mere aandar..

Ishan chup chap aapne room ke ek kone me baithakar pichle 2 ghante se roe ja raha ha sirf us nalayak ki vaje se... Because aaj Shubhman and Sara sath me pheli baar date par gae ha.. Aur sara ne Insta par dono ki hug karte hua ek photo bhi daali ha.. Jisse dekhkar Ishan ka dil hi tut gaya ha.. Ishan ke according they are looking so happy in that picture.. Aur jese hi ye photo social media par upload hui vese hi Shubsara valo ne to jese ISHMAN valo ka jeena harram hi kar diya.. Trending par ha ye photo..

Kaamine log ha ye Shubsara vaale.. Jab dekho ISHMAN or SHUBISH valo ke piche padde rehte ha... Kutte ha ye shubsara vale..

Lagta ha ki is Shubhman ke sath sath mujhe aab in Shubsara valo ko bhi line par laana padega.. Always hurting my baby..

Laakho logo ne pichle 1 ghante me is photo par comment kar dia ha.. Duniya bhar ke likes or share ho chuke ha.. But mujhe ghanta fark nhi padta.. Bhad me jae vo shubhman.. Bhad me jae vo sara.. Or bhad me jae ye shubsara vale..

Mujhe toh bas mere ishan se fark padtta ha.. Mere dil me Ishan ke lia ek alag hi soft spot ha jo aajtak kabhi kisi insaan ke lia nhi hua ha.. I feel overconnected with him.. And sometimes this thing scares the shit out of me..

Ishan is sobbing so badly right now aur hath me Shubhman ki tshirt pakdi hui ha aur baar baar usse gale lagakar ro raha ha.. Watching him like that just breaks my heart and a feeling of revenge takes place in my mind.. I will not gonna  leave that motherfucker... How dare he make my baby cry... How dare he breaks my baby's heart.. His fragile heart.. My fragile baby.. My angel.. My Ishan...

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author :- why does it sound like something else.. Kuch jada baar he 'My' nhi bol dia ha.. It sounds like a little obsession to me

Look Mr Nehal,  Ishan is not yours.. He is destined to be shubhman's..

Nehal - well.. I can change the destiny.. 🤨

Author - 😲.. But it will get you in trouble.. You can die if you try to break the rules

Nehal - do i care..???

Author - but isse Ishan ki jaan bhi ja sakti ha

Nehal - mere rehte hua Ishan ko ek kharoch tak nhi aaigi.. Ye mera wada ha author aapse

Author - i trust you

Nehal - i know.. And don't worry i will never break your trust

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Vo shubhman ka baccha vese toh bhada bolega ki Ishan tere bina mera maan nhi lagta 2 minute bhi.. Or aab dekho usse.. Raat 8 baje ka nikla hua ha yaha se or aab 11 bajne vale ha.. Aab tak nhi aaya vo vapis.. Usse khayaal bhi ha thoda sa bhi Ishan ka.. Aab kaha chali gai uski vo dil na laagne vali baat.. Us Sara ke sath kuch jada hi maan lag gya ha uska.. Or yaha mera Ishu baby aakela baitha ha ek konne me...

Kash me aabhi uske paas ja sakta or usse hug karke keh sakta ki sab tk ho jaiga.. Me hu na sath me.. Me sab tk kar dunga..

Me ye sab soch hi raha  hotta hu ki tabhi me dekhta hu ki... Aab Ishan aapni jange se uthtta ha or sidha bed ke paas aata ha.. Aur side drawer me kuch dhundane laag jaata ha.. Me usse dekh raha hu ki vo kar kya raha ha.. Aur ek duum se uske hath kuch dhundne se ruk jatte ha.. Lagtta ha usse jo chaiye tha vo mil gaya.. 

Aab me Ishan ke paas aata hu or dekhtta hu ki vo kya dhundh raha tha.. And when i looked at that thing in his hand.. I was scared..

I am an angel and yes i am scared now for the first time in my life.. Even in my entire angel lifespan.. I am scared for my Ishu.. I am scared even for myself now.. My heart is beating like crazy watching that thing in his hand.. I feel like someone is stabbing me again and again..

Ek baar to me mere Ishan ko dekh raha hu or ek baar us chiz ko jo uske hath me ha... I am trying my best to read his mind right now...  But aabhi mera khud ka dimak chalna band ho gaya ha Ishan ko aese dekhkar.. Aab jab me clearly Ishan ke thoughts ko phad paa raha hu to aab mujhe or daar laag raha ha... Pata nhi ye daar Ishan ke lia ha ya mere khud ke lia.. Seeing him in so much pain makes me so vulnerable that my Ishan is crying in front of me and still i am standing there and didn't able to do anything.. I feel so pathetic.. I feel so useless right now..

Right now i just wish ki me ek angel nhi hotta or bas ek normal human hotta to me aaj Ishan ko sambhal saktta.. Usse vo pyar de sakta jo vo deserve karta ha.. But unfortunately i am a fucking angel.. Aaj pheli baar laag raha ha ki aakhir kyu me ek Angel hu.. Aakhir kyu me mere Ishan ko pyar nhi kar sakta.. I hate my self right now.. I fucking hate you God.. I fucking hate you for giving so much pain to my Ishan.. I hate you.. I hate you... (and a tear drop from Nehal's eye first time )