I'm such a jackass...

No Words..

I...I don't know what to say...h-he...forgives me...he read my story and...he..loves me...you don't meet a person like this everyday ya know..I can't do this again...i..I checked my phone and not a while ago and...well...he was crying..what did I do...I texted him.."Ben...i.." ...I sent it and waited for his reply..I didn't know what to say.."What Jeff.." when I read it I looked away from my phone...i..I couldn't handle the pain I brought to him...he was sitting in the corner..he was typing.."*dies*" "*revives*" sure it was Internet but COME ON...he has feelings too..."*revived and cries*"...i...this was kinda like an rp but at the same time not...he was hurt..."Ben I'm sorry..." that was then...I got notifications on kik...it was hi do friends.."WHAT THE HELL!?" "Are you my friend!?" "YOU FUCKER!!!" ...i..it replied as usual..it hope they read this too....it kiked Benny.."Hey Ben..." ...i sent it and automatically got a reply ".........it don't even..." he was hurt...i could tell...I said sorry...he said he forgives me...but I have a feeling he hates me...it was all my fault...3 or 4 people on kik were spamming me with "your pathetic.." I couldn't even text..I was shaking...I dropped my phone..."SHIT!" I picked it up and it had a tiny crack.."ugh...Benny..." I went back on and typed my password mumbling it too "five nights at freddys.." and got on kik..and it lagged like hell because of the spams...I clicked Bens profile...and he was crying as usual by now..I typed.."Benny...i-i love you"...I sent it...and whispered to myself "Shit! What are you thinking!? A lot of ppl love him...he probably likes someone else...he prob-" I stopped and saw the late notification for wattpad on dm...I checked it and 28 minutes ago he said "I love you so much...I can't forget you..." I went back on kik and Ben sent a screen shot of that same conversation...I can't believe it...