You know... I know...- Yoonmin

12. Behind the cams

Jimin's PoV:-

"Our life is two sided. Whatever problems we face and no matter how much big it is, we'll still have to keep huge smile on our face..."

It is true. And I can't even complain about it. I was sitting on my bed looking at Tae and hobi hyung who were playing video games, bickering and enjoying themselves. They're happy having this time.

Tae's face when I mentioned about Jungkook was something I've never seen. He was hurt, just he doesn't show it. If at all I wouldn't have come to know about it, I would have never been able to even guess it. If and only if Jungkook wouldn't have told me about it....

Flashback:-

"I'll tell you something..." Jungkook said. I sat down as he wanted me too, with my heavy heart and blank mind. "Hyung, I'm sorry behalf of him. He didn't mean to yell at you the way he did!" He said in his weak voice. "I know, it was my mistake."

Jungkook smiled and chuckled looking away. "You're cute you know?" I scoffed. "You think I don't?" He giggled a little. "Thank you, for taking good care of me." I ruffled his hairs. "Don't thank me you Pabo!" He scrunched his nose like he does when extra happy. "Yoongi hyung was damn guilty you know." I nodded. "Yeah, he was sitting in the living room."

"I'll tell you a secret. Come closer." I leaned towards him and he whispered, "He has big fat crush on you!" I widened my eyes and leaned back. I guessed it right then...

"Seriously! He himself confessed!" Yoongi hyung confessed his feelings in front of Jungkook?! "He was damn worried when you went missing and weren't picking up our calls! He was devastated. He was not crying  but he definitely wanted to. You should've seen his face, the way he was at that time-"

"Like Taehyung was when he saw you in the ICU room, when he came running for you with his messy tears."
He went silent. After a week of noticing the sudden distance between these two, I may have thought, today was the day to ask. "Hyung he-" He shushed him. "I know, kook. Something is seriously wrong with you two. Or else, he wouldn't have gone leaving you alone when you were sick!" He hung his head low.

"If you're planning to hide it from me, it's fine. Just say if something is wrong or not!" He took a sharp breath in. "It's complicated. I myself don't know the way out of it." I gently placed my hand on his. "He.... Confessed to me."

"Confessed as in? Romantically? Love confession?" I asked. "Yes. And I.... I said no!"

"WHY?!" I basically shouted. "Hyung, hyung, calm down. Hear me out!" He startled. "Actually I also like him but I... When he said he likes me, my whole life flashed in front of my eyes. I realized, it wasn't only me, so many people's lives depend upon me. Each and every decision I make, each and every action of mine has a lot of consequences and getting into a relationship is not the right choice when your partner is the same gender!"

"I realized that if... You know, people are shipping us together, they will be very much happy after hearing about us being together but there are some antis too. They would not like it at all. I am not like Namjoon hyung to openly show my feelings or like yoongi hyung who doesn't even give two shits to anyone."

"I thought, this may be good for both of us." He sighed. I could understand him. "We all have no life behind the cams, you know right?" I gave a single nod. "I understand you the most. But I would really like you to know that, nothing is more important that you yourself. If we can't face the consequences, we still have the option to hide things from cameras. No soul will be able to find out about it. You have your life, you should be thinking about what you would rather want to do than what others want you to do."