Master of the Sea

Epilogue~ The Confessions & The Comfort

"Did... Did you try to kill yourself?"

Her voice cracked as he froze not raising his head while she blinked looking down at him. Her heart was beating faster as she touched his face, signaling him to look at her. Jimin raised his head and looked into her eyes noticing the tears rolling down her face for his pain.

"Why? Why would you do that?" Y/N asked her voice soft.

He looked at her with softness and hurt in his eyes. Not wanting to keep looking into her eyes, he looked down placing his face in his palms hiding his face from her.

"I... I was lost. I was diagnosed with severe depression. The only thoughts in my mind at that time were of killing me... I wanted an escape and like a coward I am, I did what I felt right." Jimin spoke while she looked down gazing at her lap. She was lost too, she was in depression too and she knows what it feels like.

When your body feels like breaking and you feel hollow from inside. Everything around you looks dull and everyone makes you angry and worthless.

"Your inside feels hollow and your body tries to cope with it. Constant efforts of going on feels burden. I know what it feels like."

He raised his head hearing her words as he watched her eyes filled with emotions. Wiping his tears, he sat down on the floor and placed his hands on his knees as he tilted his head, watching her. She looked into his eyes as they both spoke through their eyes.

"You can talk to me... About anything. I think... I won't get hurt anymore."

Jimin smiled painfully as they both sat in front of each other while the clouds filled the sky, the wind blowing as raindrops started to fall down.

"Why princess? Why would you listen to me after all I have done? You're too good for me."

Y/N blinked as she noticed the guilt in his eyes. She knew it is the time they speak about their misunderstandings. And if they didn't, then they will never be able to.

"I didn't care what you do for living. I just wanted you to love me the way I did. I was angry when I found the truth about us. At that time, I realized I didn't know anything about you... Do you even know how would it feel to realize that the person you love the most and claim to know. You don't know anything about him, everything was just a lie? I just wanted you to open up to me and tell me about your sorrows. But you used me, it made me feel worthless... You were the first man I fell for so hard. You were the first man who cared about me sincerely and I didn't want to lose you... Why did you do that? Why you couldn't trust me like I did? If you have told me, I swear I would have stood by your side."

She sniffled as he listened to her endless questions. It was her right to know everything about him when he did make her his. As a couple, you have to sacrifice for each other and should have the courage to hear each other opinion.

"At that time, I just wanted revenge. It was never my intention to have feelings for you, but I fell hard too. As much as I wanted to accept my feelings, I couldn't because you were making me weak... I was forgetting my purpose, my revenge for my family. I wanted to tell you but it was scaring the shit out of me." Jimin spoke as she bit her lips and looked down. After so many years, they were ready to give each other the answers of unasked questions.

"Then, why you didn't tell me?"

"You were gone."

Y/N turned silent hearing his words as she shaked her head and wiped her tears. She turned her head away looking at the raindrops hitting against the windows.

"Do you want to sleep?" He asked when she shaked her head looking at him. He nodded and stood up to bring a shawl for her, but she held his hand making him to look at her.