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Pathetic

⚠️Warning, ⚠️self harm and mentions abuse

Izuku POV

It's 8:02 am and I'm sitting against the wall of my bedroom regretting my existence, as I try to stand up I groan, covering my mouth so I don't wake rei who is in the other room , weakly stumbling my way to the bathroom on the other side of the room.

When I walk into the bathroom I look at myself in the mirror for a second, my curly green hair falling slightly over my freckled face, my white shirt is soaking up all the blood that is slowly seeping out of my body.

"PATHETIC" I spit,

the words tasted like metal, cutting my throat with how sharp they sound, I grab the box of razors from under the white sink slowly unlocking it with the gold key that hangs loosely around my neck ,I take my favorite one out placing the box down.

I stare at my scarred wrists before carefully placing the cold blade against my already torn skin, sliding it across, the pain is subtle, I barely feel the blood tainted blade ripping my veins to shreds ,blood is slowly running down my arms staining the white floor with red, once I'm satisfied I put the blade down.

Saying I am satisfied was wrong, I deserve this, I am a waste of oxygen and energy and I should just disappear.

I limply walk over to the shower immediately turning it on,I take off my clothes and slowly step in.

I watch fondly as the blood from my arms, stomach and legs slowly go down the drain .the sight is  one to behold. I wash my hair and body making sure that every breath I take hurts that it burns my throat .I scrub viciously at the scars and bruises I've collected over the years.

I step out taking my  green towel off the wooden rack, you can see holes rips and blood stains scattered around it .

I  dry myself off  slowly. After I'm done I do my skincare and walk out into my bedroom grabbing my wallet and keys.

As I go into the living room the pungent stench of alcohol
wafts from where My boyfriend is blacked out on the couch with a
Empty bottle in hand.

I stare at his face for a second wondering if I ever truly loved him. I shake myself internally and walk to the door. I
unlock it and sigh at the blood  on the door knob " I remember that day" I think silently.

I walk down our apartment stairs while pulling out my phone and texting my friends

Cinnamon roll is online
Me: hey guys can we have a sleepover over at minas?

Everyone is online now

Coffee: of course I'll be there in 20 ok izu?

Soba: same......toshi come pick me up

Alien: hunny I'll come pick you up ok? Also I was rehearsing with my band, so I'm going to be a little slow the band will only be downstairs

Me: ok, Thanks min :)

I close my phone turning it off and heading to the park bench

Everyone is offline now

I hope mina gets here soon I need to talk to everyone

Hi I'm cocoa and
I hope anyone who reads this likes it