being okay is a lie

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At lidas studio....

Izuku POV

Im feeling inspired today, I have so many ideas and loud voices swirling around in my head, a tsunami of thoughts, I need to make sense of the thoughts rushing around, I just don't know how-

WAIT

I rummage through the drawer until I find my writing book
I flip pages till I find a blank one

I grab A pencil, starting to jot down ideas

Time passes and Im almost done, I write the final lyrics

I sigh in satisfaction before standing up and going to the mic

My nerves envelop me, I take a steady breath in

I keep telling lies to the mirror
Saying that I'm fine
And that I'll be alright
But everything that I do is clearer
It's me against my mind
And I'm losing the fight
But I keep on telling lies

Why didn't I die
When I had the chance

I don't know why I didn't just die
when I had the chance
Can't see it but I'm bleeding
Can't hear it but I'm screaming out
It's feeling like I'm dreaming
I try to run away but I can't get out
So tell me, do you see it?
These demons all around me now
Oh, God, I'm never healing
Getting closer to the edge and I can't look down

Why don't I just jump, no one would notice

I run from all the thoughts in my head
And they'll chase me down 'til I'm dead

My thoughts are killing me, they are too much.
Hundreds- no thousands of voices plague my life

keep telling lies to the mirror
Saying that I'm fine
And that I'll be alright
But everything that I do is clearer
It's me against my mind
And I'm losing the fight
But I keep on telling lies

Why do even try
Why do I lie to myself

Can't see you in the darkness
Can't feel anything no more
God, you turned me to an arsonist
And it's time I burn us down
I say I'm good, I know it ain't true
Misunderstood, it's getting worse
Did all you could, I cannot blame you
I fall to my knees, I hit the dirt

No one understands,It's painful to breathe, to live

I run from all the thoughts in my head
And they'll chase me down 'til I'm dead

These demons won't leave me alone, they find me no matter what

keep telling lies to the mirror
Saying that I'm fine
And that I'll be alright
But everything that I do is clearer
It's me against my mind
And I'm losing the fight
But I keep on telling lies

Why do I go on, I have no purpose

Lies, lies, lies, lies
Lies, lies, lies, lies, lies
I keep telling lies to the mirror
Saying that I'm fine
And that I'll be alright
That I will be alright

No one cares
No one understands
They wouldn't miss me

My voice fades out and I take a shaky breath in

"I just want to die" I say quietly

I feel someone hug my from behind
I look over my shoulder to see short spiky blond hair

"Please don't" a rough voice says

I hear a soft sob and I turn around and pull him closer

Ahhhhh this was so fun to write :)

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