Is This Real?

Why?

I want him to look at me and think god she's beautiful but he doesn't even know one thing about me. I want to his eyes up close just to see if they light up and I want him to know how much he means to me. I want him to know how much his eyes remind me of the ocean not because of the Color it's because when he looks at me I see the calm beautiful waves of the ocean reflecting off of him. The way he smiles is just so sweet it's burned into my mind and the way he talks to me talks to me with that sweet angel like voice. The way he acts around me just makes me want to explode but all my friends want to have a relationship just so they're not alone. I want one with because I think he's the right person for me but everyone always says you can't feel love this deep this young . but all I think about is him and day and night . Just him texting me good morning and or how was your day makes me feel all warm inside. I want him to be the one but he can't because he already has someone for him. So all I can do is wait in silence and see what will happen between us if anything ever does. So all I ask why do I love you when you can't love me back?