lestappen (charles leclerc x max verstappen)

suspicious

*max POV*

about 2 months after we told lando, and a select few charles had been acting distant. SUPER distant, which was weird seeing as he was usually so attached. i thought i should bring it up too him, maybe he was struggling, under pressure to perform, stressed? not a single thought about what he had actually done would have ever crossed my mind. ever. 

i knew how he was when he was stressed, under pressure, or just struggling, and it was sort of like this, the only contradictor was the fact that when he was like this, all he wanted was to be held and comforted for days, of course i was happy to oblige to this but this time, he wasnt like that at all. he was avoidant. he was avoiding me. he basically rejected any form of affection i tried to give. a simple hug, kiss, hold his hand, anything and everything caused him to pull away, without reason. there was never a "sorry babe, im not feeling too well" or "i just got done training, let me shower first" he outright pulled away from my touch, the man who used to do anything for the simplest touch, is now avoiding the simplest touch. when we go to bed he makes sure i dont try snuggle up to him, or even kiss him goodnight? 

yet every night he was gone, extravagant parties, events, with mutual friends. without me? did he not think i wouldve wanted to go? i knew that something was suspicious about it all, and i needed to find out what. so i did what any suspecting partner wouldve done. i checked his computer while he was out, which had his messages synced too it. i found my way into his messages clicking on it, scrolling through his contacts list for any names. within the first few seconds i found a contact named " alex <3" who was alex? and why did he use the heart he always said was corny? i clicked on it, my heart rate accelerating heavily. there. right infront of me was all the answers i needed. chats of them saying they loved each other so much, planning future events together after charles was done with me, talking about me, how stupid i was for not knowing despite how obvious the situation was. i read and read and read chats dating back to the 13th of september, our first anniversary, over 9 months ago. at first it was innocent, talking about topics in the world, but quickly it changed, changed to a full blown love story. tears streamed down my face as i read their first i love you's, their future plans "aligning", pictures of them cuddling the night before. everything we had spoken about. 

i only had one question that remained, who was alex? however this question was quickly answered as i scrolled upon some intimate pictures the two had sent. it was another guy, not just any guy, but the picture had his face in it. it was alex albon. alex albon had been getting with my boyfriend for almost a year, shit talking me, for everything i did. winning races, my radio messages, trying to be affectionate with charles, how i dressed even. but there was one thing that really stood out to me, something that made me feel so so much worse. something i found at the start of their chats 

charles: alex, i dont think we should continue this, max means so much to me and i dont want to lose him, i would love to stay in contact but we shouldnt let this relationship go any further than it has

he had screen shotted this and said

charles: remember when i said this? i cant help but laugh 

ouch.i couldnt take it anymore, i shut his computer and broke down, it was about 8pm so i tried to stay relatively quiet about it all. i didnt want him to come home. i didnt want to see him again. the man i thought i was going to spend the rest of my life with, have a home with, share everything with. i had such an image, and i didnt have that anymore. i couldnt bear to sit in our room for one more minute, the room where i spent hours comforting him while he was stressed, the room where we had shared our most intimate moments, the room where i felt safest was the room where i felt most betrayed. he was out at some party i could give two less fucks about tonight, unsuspecting to what i had just found over the past hour.

i was left in a trance of thoughts. were there more than just alex? did he ever even love me? was it all just a show to use me? i know a lot of these couldve been found out easily by opening his computer again, but i couldnt. i sat at the kitchen counter, staring at the framed photo of him kissing my cheek on our one year on the beach. i didnt want to wait up for him, but i wondered if i should, or play the perfect boyfriend role.

just as i was about to get up a drunken charles walked in, calling my name. "max?" he asked with a groggy voice. "yes babe?" 

"ah there you are" he said and hugged me tightly 

"is everything okay baby?"

"never better, especially now im with you" he says and places a kiss on my lips 

"did you have fun?" i asked, knowing this was my chance to get some answers out of him, seeing as he was a truthful drunk.

"yeah i did, saw uhh whats his name?"

"alex?"

"no no... my boyfriend uh"

"max?" i cocked my head while holding him steady by the hips

"no.. my other boyfriend"

i felt my heart shatter but i kept my composure "carlos? george? lan-"

"LANDO!" he screamed and smiled "i have two, my boyfriend max, which i think is you, and my other boyfriend lando!"

knowing this i decided to have some fun 

"so have you ever cheated on me?" i asked soon after

"no.. i just have another boyfriend" he replied groggy 

"lets get you to bed babe"

"aw nooo im not sleepy"

"how about cuddles?" 

his eyes lit up at the idea and he quickly ran to our bedroom to change. leaving me with my own thoughts, so what was alex to charles? knowing alex couldnt tell a lie i quickly sent him a message before putting my phone in my pocket to deal with charles in his drunken state.