hello hello, don't find this depressing or shit, as most of this is all my fault
NOÉ AND VANITAS IS CANON AND YOU CANT CHANGE MY MINDDDD GRRRRRRRRR
anyways, I know venting online might cause triggers to people so please, if your going to read this...
i.... Have school ballet..... And uhm.... I wanted to quit two years ago....
But guess what?.......
My mother fucking Mother doesn't let me quit.
Why?
TO MAKE ME MORE ELASTIC?? LIKE SRS, GO FUCK URSELF MOTHER.
I HAVE MY CHOICES. I HAVE MY PRIVACY. PLEASE.
LET ME BE WHAT I FUCKING WANT.
SRS I WANTED TO BE AN ANIMATOR 2 AND 3D, WHAT DOES THAT HAVE TO WITH BALLET????
VERY MUCH, BUT AS A REFERENCE NOT AS A FUCKING BALLET.
I WANT TO QUIT. I SRS WANT TO FUCKING QUIT QUIT QUIT QUIT QUIT QUIT QUIT QUIT QUIT QUIT
QUIT!!!
....
sorry.
I. Shouldn't say those to you. Or even online.
I should be grateful that my mother can have the money to sustain me and my siblings...
Every month they ask for 40€, the problem is that I'm not the only person
As my younger sister and younger brother are here too, of course there is a discount when it's about siblings, but of course, we always grow, meaning the price will go up
I seriously wanted to quit on fucking sixth grade.
What year I am?
Eighth.
And when does your mother let's you quit?
Tenth.
If you quit on seventh grade, would you automatically make you free?
No. I had TWO choices.
1. Stay on ginasiano ( ballet company I'm in )
Or
2. Quit ginasiano, after my morning classes I would go to Study center, after study center I would go to my mother's classes, as she is a personal trainer and after that I had Acrobatic gymnastics.
which one did I choose?
OF COURSE I FUCKING CHOOSE 1, I WOULDN'T EVEN BE FREE IF I CHOOSE THE SECOND, EVERYDAY I HAVE TO LEAVE AT 13:35.
SIGH, FUCKING HELL, FUCKING GOD.
I HATE IT. I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATEHATEHATEHATEHATEHATEHATEHATEHATEHATEHATEHATE
HATE IT!!!!
I JUST FUCKING WISH TO BE FREE, WHATS THE REASON I CANT QUIT?
"uR GonNA StaY On yOuR PHonE AlL DAy!!"
WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO? THE DISHES?OK! WANT ME TO STUDY? OK! WANT ME TO DO SOMETHING ELSE THAN ON MY PHONE? OK! I DO THAT, BUT CAN AT LEAST HAVE MY FUCKING AFTERNOON FREE? THAT LITERALLY WHAT IM FUCKING ASKING
-sigh-
My fucking father respects my decisions, he would let me have free, but, my mother controls his decisions, and he can't do, much even tho he's not a good father figure.
I apologize for rampaging, I'm just tired, I do NOT mean any harm, I have good friends, even tho I think everyone in my class is my friend even if they don't like me, I'm more comfortable with online people, I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry, and I'm sorry for apologizing to much.
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