Bkdk: The loop of hell

Saturday?

Death was all I could think about. Izuku’s death. And my own. 

What is wrong with me?
I haven’t left my room for several days, and tomorrow is the day that we found Izuku dead.

“I think I’ll join him.” 

That’s all I thought about after I woke up.

I sat up in my bed and looked around my messy room.

Most of my clothes were on the floor, and my trash bin was knocked over.

“I miss you, Izuku.” I said in the silence of my room.

I missed the nerd so much that I started to crave him.

I thought of the day I saw Izuku’s dead body.

It felt like I have been dead since that moment.

I remembered clinging onto him.
His scent.
And the smell of his blood.

And…

The taste of his lips.

I stood up.

“What the fuck?” I mumbled, as I put my slippers on and stepped out into the hallway.

My feet moved on their own, towards Izuku’s room.

Once I opened his door, I stepped inside, and closed the door behind me.

Immediately, I was overcome with Izuku’s scent.
His whole room smelled like him.

His smell calmed me down a little, as I went over and sat on his bed.

I looked around his room. It was messy.

I looked over at his wall,

Wait..

What the fuck.

I stood up suddenly.

Why are his figures on his shelf?

I rubbed my eyes, then looked again.

They were still there.

“What the fuck is going on here?!” I said quietly.

I walked over and picked up the plushie I gave him.

“Didn’t I… bury this with him?” I thought, as my mind froze.

My heartbeat started to speed up, as I ran over to his bathroom door and opened it.

..

My grip on the plushie loosened as it fell to the floor.

I backed up at the sight.

..

What the..

I couldn’t breathe.
…

Why was his bathroom..

…covered in his blood.

The blood that I already cleaned up.

I fell to my knees.

“What is going on?!” I yelled, as I grasped my head.

I tried thinking of everything at once.

“Didn’t this… already happen?”

I stood up and ran out of his room.

I sped down the hallway back to my room, then I quickly put on my hero suit. I was a little tired than usual, so it took me an extra minute.

After that I started making my way to the teachers lounge.

…

Then a spike of pain rushed through my chest, and my stomach growled.

I was extremely hungry.

But there was no time to eat.

I got back up, then continued running.

I felt weaker than usual, and this made me slower.

But I eventually made it to the teacher’s lounge, opening it with no knock.

All Might and the principal were the only ones in the room.

“Where’s Izuku?!” I yelled at them.

I saw a tear fall down All Might’s face.

“We haven’t found him yet.” He said, sadly.

Shit.

I didn’t respond, I just ran as fast as I could.

“No, no, no, please. This can’t be happening.” I mumbled as I opened the door to the outside.

After that, I mustered up all my strength and started to heat my body. Then I propelled myself into the air with my explosion.

I had a hard time controlling my blasts, which made me go slower.

“Dammit, come on!” I yelled at myself.

I was running out of daylight, but I couldn’t go any faster.

*************************************

After several hours, I was almost at my childhood playground.

I was completely exhausted and hungry, but this didn’t stop me.

“Bakugo?”  I heard a voice say.

I turned and looked over to see a pro hero.

“Everyone went that way, but we still haven’t found Midoriya.” 

…

This was… all too familiar.